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everyone wnats me to go to rehab. i know its not going to work and its pointless and stupid. and since i feel that way it wont work because im not open to it.IM NOT GOING. Life is getting a little better. it got much worse before it got any better though. i have to see all these therapists and counselers and drug councilers. it all sucks. i feel like a fucking physco path. all i did was make a few bad mistakes. whatever. ill probably be allowed out in a month or 2. im going to be 18 in 12 days. they cannot keep me in forever. or at least i hope.
community service wasnt bad at all. i made a new friend named marc. he is a ghetto kid. umm i basically did bullshit work to pass 4 hours of my day.
so my dad started making things better by buying me a pack of ciggs. he said he cant do anything about it when i turn 18.
i just want to go out and have fun. if school is the only time i can see people then im never going to get anywork done. arghhhh.
so my dad has offically cancelled christmas. because they are soo mad and upset that they dont want to celebrate. no one is coming over and we are not getting a tree.
Next year ill have a christmas with my real family. kath kendl alysa and the people that are most important to me. This will be my last christmas at home. because next year when things are all hunky dory ill kick them in the face by not showing up because of what happened last year.
im kinda just rambling on because i havent written and i just want to get all this shit off my chest.
no rehab.
kendl still my best friend.
i got nothing back.
m
community service wasnt bad at all. i made a new friend named marc. he is a ghetto kid. umm i basically did bullshit work to pass 4 hours of my day.
so my dad started making things better by buying me a pack of ciggs. he said he cant do anything about it when i turn 18.
i just want to go out and have fun. if school is the only time i can see people then im never going to get anywork done. arghhhh.
so my dad has offically cancelled christmas. because they are soo mad and upset that they dont want to celebrate. no one is coming over and we are not getting a tree.
Next year ill have a christmas with my real family. kath kendl alysa and the people that are most important to me. This will be my last christmas at home. because next year when things are all hunky dory ill kick them in the face by not showing up because of what happened last year.
im kinda just rambling on because i havent written and i just want to get all this shit off my chest.
no rehab.
kendl still my best friend.
i got nothing back.
m