plants are cool
I like the new m83 album a lot.
we have some little baby seedlings sprouting!! the sunflower seedlings are shooting up vigorously!!! rapid, skyward growth.
doesn't there always have to be some complication for life to be life? well, in my case it is that I don't like Mark's friends. Or rather, it's not that I don't like them as people so much as I don't like hanging out with them. Or, really, it's the feeling of hanging out with them.
our orchid has gotten into my brain. I am strangely drawn to it whenever I'm near it... I stare at it and think only of its petals when I'm looking. It even appeared in a dream of mine recently.... Our tall "justina" plant grafted to cane is gorgeous and vibrant.
so, at work the tech guy flirts with me a lot... and we smoked cigarettes together yesterday. and the new maintenance guy (who is married!) from hungary flirts with me, too. he gives me candy, touches my arm, winks at me, and told me he liked my body!! :O it's all very dangerous for my lustful mind, because mark isn't for me + others.
although, the possibility of a 3some w/him and a gal is possible, he says. :D
I don't even really care that much, to be honest. I just want to have fun. I love Mark, and there's no reason for me to be playing with other guys or anything. I just wish society didn't look at stuff in such a WAY.
it's hideous, but as I am slowly integrating into the "real" world, or "adult" world one might say, I am realizing more and more how often men disrespect women. like, fuck you guys. I'm really fucking tired of sexist remarks. ugh. blug. bluguguggles.
dentist appointment tomorrow! :O :O :O
we have some little baby seedlings sprouting!! the sunflower seedlings are shooting up vigorously!!! rapid, skyward growth.
doesn't there always have to be some complication for life to be life? well, in my case it is that I don't like Mark's friends. Or rather, it's not that I don't like them as people so much as I don't like hanging out with them. Or, really, it's the feeling of hanging out with them.
our orchid has gotten into my brain. I am strangely drawn to it whenever I'm near it... I stare at it and think only of its petals when I'm looking. It even appeared in a dream of mine recently.... Our tall "justina" plant grafted to cane is gorgeous and vibrant.
so, at work the tech guy flirts with me a lot... and we smoked cigarettes together yesterday. and the new maintenance guy (who is married!) from hungary flirts with me, too. he gives me candy, touches my arm, winks at me, and told me he liked my body!! :O it's all very dangerous for my lustful mind, because mark isn't for me + others.
although, the possibility of a 3some w/him and a gal is possible, he says. :D
I don't even really care that much, to be honest. I just want to have fun. I love Mark, and there's no reason for me to be playing with other guys or anything. I just wish society didn't look at stuff in such a WAY.
it's hideous, but as I am slowly integrating into the "real" world, or "adult" world one might say, I am realizing more and more how often men disrespect women. like, fuck you guys. I'm really fucking tired of sexist remarks. ugh. blug. bluguguggles.
dentist appointment tomorrow! :O :O :O