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so, ramapo. i dont even know. the classes are decent but i really really miss brookdale for one reason or another. probably because of lindsay and stuff, and because of how comfortable i was there. but im pretty comfortable here and ive made some pretty good friends so far. we have alot of fun and i like how im comfortable around them. i do miss my parents and stuff but im getting over it. i think i still wish i was a commuter. but i dont know, then id be missing out on alot of things. but right now im happy with where i am and what i'm doing. i'm homesick way less than i'm happy being here. so that's a good thing. can't really complain.
fall is here, it's october, and of course i'm getting nostalgic. but i think that since i'm in a different place instead of at home that i'll appreciate it much more and i wont be sad or depressed or whatever it is i get around this time. it's different though, i'm getting different things out of fall than i usually do. im not immersed in election day and stuff like i usually am at home. there's no driving to brookdale where i have a half hour each way to think about things that may or may not make me sad. it's weird, like it's impossible for me to be sad here. i don't know what it is. i was bummed a little last night from talking to my mom but then i put on a movie and had some time for myself and i was okay. and then dave knocked on the door and pretty soon there was like 8 of us sitting in the hallway talking about nonsense and having a good time.
new boy interest. i think there's a new one every week. they're all backfiring so far. i think its best to stay away from roommates, lots of tension. but i'm over it. there's a boy who lives across the hall whose really cute and really smart and funny and adorable and i dont know. i'm not thinking much of it but he doesn't party too much and i like that about him. i need to not party so much. anyway, the only potential problem is that he's super religious, which i respect but i am in no way religious at all, especially since everythings been happening with uncle dino and stuff. but who knows, maybe i can learn something. he may be coming apple picking with us on sunday so that's exciting. we'll see what happpensssssss. it's all in good fun.
this weekend should be fun i think. i was gonna go home but i'm not sure if i want to or not. there's alot going on. party tomorrow night, octoberfest the whole weekend. apple picking sunday. maybe its better if i just stay here. i just miss my parents so much, and kelley too, alot. but i guess it'll get easier. maybe ill go home tuesday night and come back here thursday morning next week. i guess we'll see. as usual.
anyway, i have class in 40 minutes and we have to sign up for apple picking. i need a job. and i love jason mraz.