Joy and woes.
it has been a week since i last force myself to sit right in front of the lappy to blog. mid terms aren't over yet, and i have got to complete my lab report. many things are coming in. for example, i am still excited about going to ucsd for student exchange program but yet again, i have to figure out how to fund myself for this trip, how can i cope with the studies (but before that the module mappings and application), and even leaving people i love in singapore for about 4 months.
let me start the woes. well, i don't know if dad is coping well with his medical bill and i am seriously very worried. if the bills are rising, then expenses will only increase and it would be a big burden for him. even though i am not taking money from him already, i still feel that i should be doing something more than that. today i was not feeling that good about mum's absence from the family. well, she goes to work and for the rest of the day, playing mahjong or singing karaoke. not blaming her since i was born so early that it took her youth away, but i think there should a limit ba. my house is in a terrible mess at times, and in the morning i killed a cockroach, and just now my sis killed another one. somemore, dad and sis don't do housework. so today again, mum din cook dinner and i'm fine with it, so i'll just buy dinner and eat on the way to tuition. but dad returns in the afternoon just before i was leaving, and so i din have time to buy him dinner. i thought he would buy his own. and i received call from mum at 9 plus asking me to buy for my dad. of course, i know that my dad is probably tired and lazy to buy and so he called my mum. and my mum is still busy with her affairs and so she called me. and dad's health hasn't been good, so eating meals at irregular times or eating unhealthy food is going to affect his health and also the price of medicine. in the end, everyone got to suffer. (of course sis and mum are ignorant about this) and my point is that, if i'm not around, can they take care of matters at home?
blah.. i shall not continue.. i shall just indulge in the joy of going to ucsd.
let me start the woes. well, i don't know if dad is coping well with his medical bill and i am seriously very worried. if the bills are rising, then expenses will only increase and it would be a big burden for him. even though i am not taking money from him already, i still feel that i should be doing something more than that. today i was not feeling that good about mum's absence from the family. well, she goes to work and for the rest of the day, playing mahjong or singing karaoke. not blaming her since i was born so early that it took her youth away, but i think there should a limit ba. my house is in a terrible mess at times, and in the morning i killed a cockroach, and just now my sis killed another one. somemore, dad and sis don't do housework. so today again, mum din cook dinner and i'm fine with it, so i'll just buy dinner and eat on the way to tuition. but dad returns in the afternoon just before i was leaving, and so i din have time to buy him dinner. i thought he would buy his own. and i received call from mum at 9 plus asking me to buy for my dad. of course, i know that my dad is probably tired and lazy to buy and so he called my mum. and my mum is still busy with her affairs and so she called me. and dad's health hasn't been good, so eating meals at irregular times or eating unhealthy food is going to affect his health and also the price of medicine. in the end, everyone got to suffer. (of course sis and mum are ignorant about this) and my point is that, if i'm not around, can they take care of matters at home?
blah.. i shall not continue.. i shall just indulge in the joy of going to ucsd.