Sca-rewwww this
I have this anxious achey feeling in my stomach.
Right now, frankly, I hate Carlin just as much as I love him and I can't stand this. I kind of feel like dying inside. I'm too angry too sleep... which is bad b/c that's what I do when I'm angry. I can't cry, but I want to sooo bad. I want to scream and cry and do everything in my power to get rid of this stupid sick feeling in my stomach.
God, now I understand the meaning of "ignorance is bliss". I'd rather be in the situation I was in with Steven than go through this crap... I think...
And the worst part is, I'm too stubborn to give up, so I'm just going to keep trying at this relationship until I'm nearly dead. It's come to the point where I don't really trust the whole relationship situation. I don't trust Carlin and I'm not going to force myself to anymore.
I'm so scared.
Right now, frankly, I hate Carlin just as much as I love him and I can't stand this. I kind of feel like dying inside. I'm too angry too sleep... which is bad b/c that's what I do when I'm angry. I can't cry, but I want to sooo bad. I want to scream and cry and do everything in my power to get rid of this stupid sick feeling in my stomach.
God, now I understand the meaning of "ignorance is bliss". I'd rather be in the situation I was in with Steven than go through this crap... I think...
And the worst part is, I'm too stubborn to give up, so I'm just going to keep trying at this relationship until I'm nearly dead. It's come to the point where I don't really trust the whole relationship situation. I don't trust Carlin and I'm not going to force myself to anymore.
I'm so scared.