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god damn its been a long time since i said anything here...........
Have you had the feeling that life is passing you by?
I look back on my freshman year of highschool and realise just what a good time in my life that was. I had my petty problems and my failed romances, of course. Even some anxiety problems. But i have come to realise that i was actually living. I was being a highschooler, whatever that means. I was spening time with different people every day and ging places, doing things, having fun and savoring the moments. The 3 years before that were amazing...I had friends who i spent almost every waking minute with, i discovered what it feels like to walk to the local movie theater with your best friend for the first time without having parents along. I remember walking past the fountain next to the theatre, seeing all the older "cooler" kids, and not caring that they were older and cooler, because we knew that in that moment, we were happier than any of them. I remember kowing that i was a teenager and realising that's what it means to be one. to live and feel and experiance and learn freely. i remember all this. and i miss it.
maybe things will get better once i start college. that will certainly be an experiance.
Life is...hectic and strange. and when you're lucky it can be amazingly fun. but no matter what, it's an adventure. Every morning, i wake up knowing something new will happen, and life might change dramatically. My life has been changed, tiwisted, even filpped upsidedown, and skewed so much so often recently. i never know what to expect anymore. and i guess in some ways thts a good thing because i really apreciate life now more than ever. i apreciate how important it is to have good memories, to realise and be greatful for every single moment of happiness you get. And that participating in life is important. we can't always sit in the corners, waiting for something or someone interesting to stuble over us on its way past.
Know you are happy. Know things could be worse. Put aside bad memories, but think long and hard on good ones. And most of all, enjoy what tme we have. Because it's never enough.
Have you had the feeling that life is passing you by?
I look back on my freshman year of highschool and realise just what a good time in my life that was. I had my petty problems and my failed romances, of course. Even some anxiety problems. But i have come to realise that i was actually living. I was being a highschooler, whatever that means. I was spening time with different people every day and ging places, doing things, having fun and savoring the moments. The 3 years before that were amazing...I had friends who i spent almost every waking minute with, i discovered what it feels like to walk to the local movie theater with your best friend for the first time without having parents along. I remember walking past the fountain next to the theatre, seeing all the older "cooler" kids, and not caring that they were older and cooler, because we knew that in that moment, we were happier than any of them. I remember kowing that i was a teenager and realising that's what it means to be one. to live and feel and experiance and learn freely. i remember all this. and i miss it.
maybe things will get better once i start college. that will certainly be an experiance.
Life is...hectic and strange. and when you're lucky it can be amazingly fun. but no matter what, it's an adventure. Every morning, i wake up knowing something new will happen, and life might change dramatically. My life has been changed, tiwisted, even filpped upsidedown, and skewed so much so often recently. i never know what to expect anymore. and i guess in some ways thts a good thing because i really apreciate life now more than ever. i apreciate how important it is to have good memories, to realise and be greatful for every single moment of happiness you get. And that participating in life is important. we can't always sit in the corners, waiting for something or someone interesting to stuble over us on its way past.
Know you are happy. Know things could be worse. Put aside bad memories, but think long and hard on good ones. And most of all, enjoy what tme we have. Because it's never enough.