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I need to get out of here, I think. Out of Branford.
Not right now...and not for good. I think I just need to...go away. I need to find somewhere else to be, like for the school year. I need to transfer out of Southern and go away for school. I don't do well being here all the time. I need to find somewhere new, somewhere of my own.
Somewhere where there's nothing holding me back and keeping me from moving on. I might as well still be in high school, and I was finally getting sick of it...but then I thought I found something that made staying in Branford feel good, and right.
But now it's a reason - really, the reason - I need to get out of here.
God damnit. I was doing so well. I mean, I did have a bit of a breakdown the other day...but that was just an off day. It was "every tiny little thing makes Jessie sorrowful because she has major PMS" day. But for some reason, these past two days have been hell.
Sorry that my updates have been pretty much non-stop angst and broken hearts and woe and sorrow and self-pity since May 3rd. :/
Not right now...and not for good. I think I just need to...go away. I need to find somewhere else to be, like for the school year. I need to transfer out of Southern and go away for school. I don't do well being here all the time. I need to find somewhere new, somewhere of my own.
Somewhere where there's nothing holding me back and keeping me from moving on. I might as well still be in high school, and I was finally getting sick of it...but then I thought I found something that made staying in Branford feel good, and right.
But now it's a reason - really, the reason - I need to get out of here.
God damnit. I was doing so well. I mean, I did have a bit of a breakdown the other day...but that was just an off day. It was "every tiny little thing makes Jessie sorrowful because she has major PMS" day. But for some reason, these past two days have been hell.
Sorry that my updates have been pretty much non-stop angst and broken hearts and woe and sorrow and self-pity since May 3rd. :/