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i haven't sung for years, alone in my room. i've been singing while i'm walking somewhere so that i haven't been able to really hear my voice. i've been singing while listening to music with headphones to make my voice disappear, still knowing it's there. and last night, while playing my keyboard kind of instrument i started to sing, and it wasn't me, it was someone else. and when i woke up, i had to hear my voice again to be sure it was me, because i never knew i could sing. i'm just not sure where that icelandic accent came from, i can't even speak icelandic, only couple of sentences. and it still feels too intimate to sing when others are listening, i know. sometimes even speaking feels, around people i don't know.
and i found this yesterday, it's very old, i have played it when i was a child. my bad memory is pleasing sometimes, because of these lovely surprises. i didn't remember at all that i had that kind of instrument, i have a bass, but i've been thinking of pianos and keyboard instruments lately. i like to play melodies with it, simple ones and just listen to them. i have always disliked notes very much. writing music like that, it's so absurd! ( i want to be a singer )