Love is painful.
In my memory, I will erase your voice
In my memory, I will even erase your name
I think I have been in pain enough
Every time, I call out to you and break down
Throw these moments I think of him away. So many tangled emotions I want to be rid of. Moving has caused me to have relapses. I know it'll pass. I'll wake up and not have a thought of him all day. But I don't know what emotions are acceptable. Time has erased many memories but I think I'd rather erase it all than have the fleeting good ones.
He wasn't a good guy and I have many emotional scars to prove it. Why couldn't I have let go sooner? When actually it was Jay who gave me the last push I needed to get out and break up. And I almost went back until he said the words that stabbed me one last time. I'm glad to be free. I'm glad he made me wake up and then ran away. I just get frustrated at these lingering emotions.
I don't want to care that he doesn't even have the decency to turn in his key or get his shit out of the apartment. I DON"T WANT TO CARE.
So stop thinking about it and being annoyed.
Relapsing again? ---------------------------------------------------
Stop being disappointed, depressed, angry, confused, frustrated, annoyed. It ended. It was shit. Don't even try to sugar coat the shit he did to you. He was sweet far less than he was rotten. Don't forgive his cruelty. Don't blame yourself for anything. Don't think that any of it was your fault because he messed you up so bad with the wreckage he left from 9 years of knowing each other. Yes admit: it was that bad. How many times did he break up with YOU? You were loyal and loving at one time, he warped you, made you bitter, made you distrust (and with good reason girl), made you insecure. You're beautiful, don't be dragged down. You're starting a new chapter now, so live it. Don't look back.
Shake your head and free yourself of those emotions. Sing a song at the top of your lungs. Run, bike, work out. It'll get rid of them. You're stronger now, you've been through this. Let go, move on, don't ruin the day.
~Death Comes Fast~
In my memory, I will even erase your name
I think I have been in pain enough
Every time, I call out to you and break down
Throw these moments I think of him away. So many tangled emotions I want to be rid of. Moving has caused me to have relapses. I know it'll pass. I'll wake up and not have a thought of him all day. But I don't know what emotions are acceptable. Time has erased many memories but I think I'd rather erase it all than have the fleeting good ones.
He wasn't a good guy and I have many emotional scars to prove it. Why couldn't I have let go sooner? When actually it was Jay who gave me the last push I needed to get out and break up. And I almost went back until he said the words that stabbed me one last time. I'm glad to be free. I'm glad he made me wake up and then ran away. I just get frustrated at these lingering emotions.
I don't want to care that he doesn't even have the decency to turn in his key or get his shit out of the apartment. I DON"T WANT TO CARE.
So stop thinking about it and being annoyed.
Relapsing again? ---------------------------------------------------
Stop being disappointed, depressed, angry, confused, frustrated, annoyed. It ended. It was shit. Don't even try to sugar coat the shit he did to you. He was sweet far less than he was rotten. Don't forgive his cruelty. Don't blame yourself for anything. Don't think that any of it was your fault because he messed you up so bad with the wreckage he left from 9 years of knowing each other. Yes admit: it was that bad. How many times did he break up with YOU? You were loyal and loving at one time, he warped you, made you bitter, made you distrust (and with good reason girl), made you insecure. You're beautiful, don't be dragged down. You're starting a new chapter now, so live it. Don't look back.
Shake your head and free yourself of those emotions. Sing a song at the top of your lungs. Run, bike, work out. It'll get rid of them. You're stronger now, you've been through this. Let go, move on, don't ruin the day.
~Death Comes Fast~