weight on my chest be gone
im sorry i havnt updated in a while. no excuse really, just been buzi and its hard for me to keep up. but i continually have a quest to do better.
im talkin to my bestess online right now, and its cool, i love talking to her.
whats been kinda on my mind bout her l8ly is, ive felt a lil distant. and im tryin to accept that but its hard.
like after school im used to talking to her a lot but last week i go nothing but a hi hug and a goodbye hug. and yes i am grateful for that, but i miss actual conversation. and i kno l8ly its cuz shes been all cuddly and stuff with mark, and im tryin to accept that thats the way its gonna be. and its not cuz im jealous or nething like that, its just i miss conversating. and at 1 point it was like all couples and me tryin not to intrude on ne1s time. i dont wanna be a bother. and then dane's bein a girl. so i think for now on im not gonna stay after as long. i shall leave when heatha and roxy usually leave. cuz after that its all couples so i dont fit with u guys. so i accept my place willingly and understandibly.
i just alwayz feel like im a burden, like a leech, alwayz tryin to suck the blood out of u. and i dont like that. and i kno ur gonna tell me im not a burden, but y do i feel this way? maybe its cuz i feel that ur happy without me and u have enuf ppl to hang out with and talk to u and i dont wanna make ur time management hectic.
the truth is, i love u, ur my best friend. im not more comfy with ne1 else. i can tell u everything. and i wanna spent time with u outside of school often. but i understand i cant get everything i want, and i hurtfully attempt to accept this. i miss u.
the end.
im talkin to my bestess online right now, and its cool, i love talking to her.
whats been kinda on my mind bout her l8ly is, ive felt a lil distant. and im tryin to accept that but its hard.
like after school im used to talking to her a lot but last week i go nothing but a hi hug and a goodbye hug. and yes i am grateful for that, but i miss actual conversation. and i kno l8ly its cuz shes been all cuddly and stuff with mark, and im tryin to accept that thats the way its gonna be. and its not cuz im jealous or nething like that, its just i miss conversating. and at 1 point it was like all couples and me tryin not to intrude on ne1s time. i dont wanna be a bother. and then dane's bein a girl. so i think for now on im not gonna stay after as long. i shall leave when heatha and roxy usually leave. cuz after that its all couples so i dont fit with u guys. so i accept my place willingly and understandibly.
i just alwayz feel like im a burden, like a leech, alwayz tryin to suck the blood out of u. and i dont like that. and i kno ur gonna tell me im not a burden, but y do i feel this way? maybe its cuz i feel that ur happy without me and u have enuf ppl to hang out with and talk to u and i dont wanna make ur time management hectic.
the truth is, i love u, ur my best friend. im not more comfy with ne1 else. i can tell u everything. and i wanna spent time with u outside of school often. but i understand i cant get everything i want, and i hurtfully attempt to accept this. i miss u.
the end.