i kno its been a while but i can explain, read-only mode
i just totally wrote an entry-long reply to ur last post. i guess when i completely let my feelings out, i have a lot to say. u kno except for not seeing u this weekend. my weekend was pretty good. i had fun. today i went to tims then me n mark went to a junk yard and got like 11 speakers out of cars cuz i have this project im doing, im hooking up a car cd player and whole bunch of speakers and an amp in my room to my tv and my computer. then me mark charlie and ej hung out for a while. i took ej's comp home to fix it for him cuz its bein dumb.
but onto lj talk.
i dunno if im being numb or unaffected. cuz its 2 diff things to me. i have yet to me really really hurt but ur non-equivalent feelings. i wasnt expecting u to feel the same way so its no surprise to me, and u make me happy without that newayz. so theres really no reason to be really really hurt. yes i am hurt. but really really hurt includes crying. i havnt cried about it. there was an occasion where i was sitting at home and i just smiled really really big cuz i was thinking what if u felt the way i felt, i was like omg, we would be so perfect, and i havnt smiled so big in a while.
im really glad things rnt weird. what made me tell u along with that hypothetical talk we had was that i realized it would be very unlikely for things to be weird. cuz we're beyond weirdness. and i love bein text buddies. i counted my texts and its gettin to 150,lol.
in what u wrote me back in the notebook, i remember a part where u said i was the most reliable and consistent friend u have. and im glad u see that. cuz im alwayz gonna be hear for u, as long as u live, even after i die, I WILL HAUNT U!! lol. i will alwayz listen when u need to vent. i will alwayz do my best to make u smile and feel better. because what i want most of all, if for u to be happy. and i alwayz try to do everything i can.
something that's bothering me is that its been a long time since we hung out. and i feel like recently ive been asking and pushing too much for that to happen. so im sorry. it shouldnt seem like such a one-sided thing. thats just how i feel. i misseth u....
another thing, i feel a lot better to get stuff off my chest. to my parents bout my legal problems, to u bout my feelings. and to be more open with my friends. i have a bad habbit of ignoring my feelings and surpressing them. it tends to eat me away.
everyday i thank God for having something so special with u. but today i also wanna thank you. so thank u so much bestess. i appreciate everything u do and say. i love u for all u that are, good, bad, nice, mean, cuddly, grouchy, everything.
1 + 4 + 3 = 8
green red brown
eye love you
i love you!
1 1234 123
1 4 3 = 8
BESTESS!
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but onto lj talk.
i dunno if im being numb or unaffected. cuz its 2 diff things to me. i have yet to me really really hurt but ur non-equivalent feelings. i wasnt expecting u to feel the same way so its no surprise to me, and u make me happy without that newayz. so theres really no reason to be really really hurt. yes i am hurt. but really really hurt includes crying. i havnt cried about it. there was an occasion where i was sitting at home and i just smiled really really big cuz i was thinking what if u felt the way i felt, i was like omg, we would be so perfect, and i havnt smiled so big in a while.
im really glad things rnt weird. what made me tell u along with that hypothetical talk we had was that i realized it would be very unlikely for things to be weird. cuz we're beyond weirdness. and i love bein text buddies. i counted my texts and its gettin to 150,lol.
in what u wrote me back in the notebook, i remember a part where u said i was the most reliable and consistent friend u have. and im glad u see that. cuz im alwayz gonna be hear for u, as long as u live, even after i die, I WILL HAUNT U!! lol. i will alwayz listen when u need to vent. i will alwayz do my best to make u smile and feel better. because what i want most of all, if for u to be happy. and i alwayz try to do everything i can.
something that's bothering me is that its been a long time since we hung out. and i feel like recently ive been asking and pushing too much for that to happen. so im sorry. it shouldnt seem like such a one-sided thing. thats just how i feel. i misseth u....
another thing, i feel a lot better to get stuff off my chest. to my parents bout my legal problems, to u bout my feelings. and to be more open with my friends. i have a bad habbit of ignoring my feelings and surpressing them. it tends to eat me away.
everyday i thank God for having something so special with u. but today i also wanna thank you. so thank u so much bestess. i appreciate everything u do and say. i love u for all u that are, good, bad, nice, mean, cuddly, grouchy, everything.
1 + 4 + 3 = 8
green red brown
eye love you
i love you!
1 1234 123
1 4 3 = 8
BESTESS!
12345678