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this is hard. im laying here on my bed holdin gmy monica being soooooooooooooooooooooo lonely. for my psychological well-being this feeling is devastating. i used to be really messed up emotionally and i am getting these bad feelings i used to get and im afraid that im gonna end up depressed again. and theres nothing worse to me than being a melancholy person who no1 cares to talk to , be around, or hang out with because i am depressed. it makes me feel unwanted by the world and it makes me feel like i have no1. even if thats not true.
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I DONT WANAN END UP LIKE THAT AGAIN EVER
and laying on my bed feeling lonely makes it hard.
Stina was a very important person in my life. i completely trusted her judgement and guidance and i needed it. but stina isnt there for me anymore. and it hurts so bad. and i cant help but feel great rage towards dane for being completely selfish. and whenever i look at stina i feel like i appear very sad and hopeless. because i lost some1 very important to me. i lost her when i told her i needed to talk to her but she was too buzi and totally forgot about it.
it is very hard for me to accept the way things are now with stina.
this is hard. im laying here on my bed holdin gmy monica being soooooooooooooooooooooo lonely. for my psychological well-being this feeling is devastating. i used to be really messed up emotionally and i am getting these bad feelings i used to get and im afraid that im gonna end up depressed again. and theres nothing worse to me than being a melancholy person who no1 cares to talk to , be around, or hang out with because i am depressed. it makes me feel unwanted by the world and it makes me feel like i have no1. even if thats not true.
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I DONT WANAN END UP LIKE THAT AGAIN EVER
and laying on my bed feeling lonely makes it hard.
Stina was a very important person in my life. i completely trusted her judgement and guidance and i needed it. but stina isnt there for me anymore. and it hurts so bad. and i cant help but feel great rage towards dane for being completely selfish. and whenever i look at stina i feel like i appear very sad and hopeless. because i lost some1 very important to me. i lost her when i told her i needed to talk to her but she was too buzi and totally forgot about it.
it is very hard for me to accept the way things are now with stina.