Heavy Lifting This Grief
It's been 7 years since I've made an entry but today felt like the right time.
In April of 2004 I began a long distance relationship with someone I met through Livejournal. We didn't hesitate with our feelings and by September, I'd moved to Olympia to continue our relationship and start school at Evergreen.
Heather and I had adventures, laughter, overflowing young love, and a false sense of security that we'd get married someday.
After our relationship ended in 2006, we stayed friends having minor difficulties in the beginning.
In 2007 I met Will who I married and stayed with for 7 years before he left me in 2013. Heather came to our wedding in 2009 and I went to hers in August of 2014. My divorce was final a couple months later in October and I made sure everyone at her wedding knew the pain I was going through. Just one of many terrible decisions I made that night.
That was the last time we saw each other in person.
When I got sober in February of 2017, I wrote her an amends letter which she gladly accepted. But the damage had already been done. We became people who fell out of each other's lives.
Heather passed away suddenly a few days ago. The shock hasn't worn off yet and I don't know if it ever will. My heart is broken and there's rumors of tears but nothing has really come out yet.
Heather, you are so loved and so missed.
Rest well.