*burp* blah
hey guys, it's been a while since i've written in this thingy. Not many things happened 2 me this past month. The whole favortism thing in JROTC, well, i'm still suffering 4rm it, but i guess it's not as bad as b4.
A few days ago, i had a swim meet that Varela wanted me 2 swim. I had 2 swim the 500, which stands 4, 500 yards. I wasn't 2 worried, cuz i've done the 500 b4 in practice. Little did i know that i'd b scareing myself almost 2 death,. litterly. Well, this is how it goes: i was getting myself ready 4 my 500. u know, like warming up, and getting my body used 2 the temperature of the water, etc. But when i got on the block, all that was on my mind was 2 get the whole tihng over w/, i didn't care much aboot NE thing else. That's when it was my downfall. So i started the race, it went well at first, but then i noticed something. I wasn't breathing!!!! So i panict, and went crazy trying 2 catch my breath. I managed 2 make it 2 the pool, and i caught my breath 4 a mment, but that moment cost me second place, so instead i got fourth.
The next day, which was also the drill meet, i had 2 swim again. Only that day, i only had 2 swim 100, which i can handle. I got second place in it.
I feel like i'm going through that stage again. U know, that 1 that i went through when i was in 7th grade. That feeling that nobody wants me around is coming over me again. Only this time, it's in JROTC, and not a rocker clique. Honestly, i just need so compassion, and some1 2 tell me that i am wanted in jrotc, and u know, kinda not make me feel this way. Last time this happened, i tried 2 kill myself, but i'm not that crazy NE more. Speaking of commiting suicide, i was carrying a heavy thingy the other day. And since i had 2 carry it a long distance, it kinda fell, and it's edge scratched my wrist pritty dep. So deep that it left me a scar and my wrist still feels weak.
My nicec was born yesterday. She's so cute, and so little. But then again, i saw her when she was like, a few minutes old, so she's gonna have 2 b small. I'm an aunt again, so that means more baby sitting 4 me.
I'm really tired right now, cuz 2day was the homecoming game thingy, and untill a few mintes ago, i came home, so i'm really tired. I'll leave u guys here, 3eece....
A few days ago, i had a swim meet that Varela wanted me 2 swim. I had 2 swim the 500, which stands 4, 500 yards. I wasn't 2 worried, cuz i've done the 500 b4 in practice. Little did i know that i'd b scareing myself almost 2 death,. litterly. Well, this is how it goes: i was getting myself ready 4 my 500. u know, like warming up, and getting my body used 2 the temperature of the water, etc. But when i got on the block, all that was on my mind was 2 get the whole tihng over w/, i didn't care much aboot NE thing else. That's when it was my downfall. So i started the race, it went well at first, but then i noticed something. I wasn't breathing!!!! So i panict, and went crazy trying 2 catch my breath. I managed 2 make it 2 the pool, and i caught my breath 4 a mment, but that moment cost me second place, so instead i got fourth.
The next day, which was also the drill meet, i had 2 swim again. Only that day, i only had 2 swim 100, which i can handle. I got second place in it.
I feel like i'm going through that stage again. U know, that 1 that i went through when i was in 7th grade. That feeling that nobody wants me around is coming over me again. Only this time, it's in JROTC, and not a rocker clique. Honestly, i just need so compassion, and some1 2 tell me that i am wanted in jrotc, and u know, kinda not make me feel this way. Last time this happened, i tried 2 kill myself, but i'm not that crazy NE more. Speaking of commiting suicide, i was carrying a heavy thingy the other day. And since i had 2 carry it a long distance, it kinda fell, and it's edge scratched my wrist pritty dep. So deep that it left me a scar and my wrist still feels weak.
My nicec was born yesterday. She's so cute, and so little. But then again, i saw her when she was like, a few minutes old, so she's gonna have 2 b small. I'm an aunt again, so that means more baby sitting 4 me.
I'm really tired right now, cuz 2day was the homecoming game thingy, and untill a few mintes ago, i came home, so i'm really tired. I'll leave u guys here, 3eece....