I cried a sea the day you told me we were through :(
I try to keep a good attitude.
I'll be waiting for you, anyway.
Elliott Smith all night. I feel like I'm not myself... How will I be without Josh? He was all I knew for so many months now. I can't cry anymore. I just feel so blank and alone and scared. Maybe it was for the best? It doesn't feel like it. Nothing has ever hurt so bad. I guess when you really love somebody even just the thought of being apart seems impossible to handle. It is impossible. I have NO IDEA what this will be like. Josh changed my whole life, I wonder if he knows that. Hopefully we both grew a lot in our relationship--I know I did. Is this really it? I feel like an old lady. All a girl has is her heart, right? No. Times are changing. We have a lot more to worry about now.
So many things causing me stress. School, new job, summer, apartment, responsibility. Anxious for everything. Not ready for summer. What will I do this summer? In Lansing without Josh and Tim. Hopefully Katie lives with me or else I will truly be a lonely mess. I can't think about all of these things at once or I may go crazy. Ugh. Have to read A Hundred Years of Solitude tonight, or at least most of it. Take notes. Smoke cigarettes. Study, study, study. My little heart is trying it's hardest to stay strong. Beat, beat, beat. Music beats right along with your heart. Listen
<3 :/
A lot of hours to occupy, it was easy
When I didn't know you yet
Things I'd have to forget
But I better be quiet now
I'm tired of wasting my breath
Carrying on, getting upset
Would you say the one of your dreams got in you and ripped out the seams? That's what I'd say.
Fuck that guy
I'll be waiting for you, anyway.
Elliott Smith all night. I feel like I'm not myself... How will I be without Josh? He was all I knew for so many months now. I can't cry anymore. I just feel so blank and alone and scared. Maybe it was for the best? It doesn't feel like it. Nothing has ever hurt so bad. I guess when you really love somebody even just the thought of being apart seems impossible to handle. It is impossible. I have NO IDEA what this will be like. Josh changed my whole life, I wonder if he knows that. Hopefully we both grew a lot in our relationship--I know I did. Is this really it? I feel like an old lady. All a girl has is her heart, right? No. Times are changing. We have a lot more to worry about now.
So many things causing me stress. School, new job, summer, apartment, responsibility. Anxious for everything. Not ready for summer. What will I do this summer? In Lansing without Josh and Tim. Hopefully Katie lives with me or else I will truly be a lonely mess. I can't think about all of these things at once or I may go crazy. Ugh. Have to read A Hundred Years of Solitude tonight, or at least most of it. Take notes. Smoke cigarettes. Study, study, study. My little heart is trying it's hardest to stay strong. Beat, beat, beat. Music beats right along with your heart. Listen
<3 :/
A lot of hours to occupy, it was easy
When I didn't know you yet
Things I'd have to forget
But I better be quiet now
I'm tired of wasting my breath
Carrying on, getting upset
Would you say the one of your dreams got in you and ripped out the seams? That's what I'd say.
Fuck that guy