Numb Liqour and Party Favors
i have decided for the best of me and my emotions, the best for my friendship, and my future.. HE will no longer be my obsession, as i once had before. Im finally quitting. I've talked myself into it. And to tell the truth, I've never felt happier....
It is because i finally know what to do, and i dont have to sit up late at night, trying to think of what i should say, how i should be, what i should do. Instead, my lovely friend will be helping me with a friend of hers. ( i know what your thinking)....So soon? A Replacement? You know what, i've had a few conversations with this guy, and he seems to be.......more capable and less confusing and difficult. I suppose its strange to say all of this, but after my last entry, i figured i had about as much as i could take from him. I smiled soo much, but i also had my heart broken one too many times by him, just by a simple action. I cant be that. This is more sensible.
My friend will be talking to him...
Im feeling clarity,and im able to breathe. =)
As for last night....
Last night was a very interesting night.. Let me just sum it up in a type of way that you get the jist of it, but i dont have to tell the whole story.... Would take to long, and im still suffereing from a hangover. lol
So chelsea has helped me to a final part. No longer am i going to be gawking at HIM, cause me and him are friends...and never anything else. He's just as sweet to me, though. Last night he kept helping me, cause i was a little tipsy. But anyways, Daniel is somewhat out of the picture now... I dont think he likes me, like chelsea thought he would, BUT Caleb is in the picture. Caleb is chelsea's brother.. A very sweet guy. He likes me. He kept following me around and trying to fall asleep on me, at the party i had lastnight...After the coffee shop show, we all came back to my house and kicked back. The night ended me sitting on the floor , petting his head, cause he got really drunk. He was holding my hand and stroking it. I thought that was the sweetest thing, even though he probably didnt even know what he was doing... i dunno. But maybe i'll give the guy a try? I really need someone in mylife... all this loneliness has somewhat gone to my head, so im left with low selfesteem, and worse...I need a guy that will care. And well......he seems to fit that perspective. Lets just see where this goes..
PS: SoCo didnt get in my way this time (yay!) i was just buzzed the whole night. Im sooo good , haha.
It is because i finally know what to do, and i dont have to sit up late at night, trying to think of what i should say, how i should be, what i should do. Instead, my lovely friend will be helping me with a friend of hers. ( i know what your thinking)....So soon? A Replacement? You know what, i've had a few conversations with this guy, and he seems to be.......more capable and less confusing and difficult. I suppose its strange to say all of this, but after my last entry, i figured i had about as much as i could take from him. I smiled soo much, but i also had my heart broken one too many times by him, just by a simple action. I cant be that. This is more sensible.
My friend will be talking to him...
Im feeling clarity,and im able to breathe. =)
As for last night....
Last night was a very interesting night.. Let me just sum it up in a type of way that you get the jist of it, but i dont have to tell the whole story.... Would take to long, and im still suffereing from a hangover. lol
So chelsea has helped me to a final part. No longer am i going to be gawking at HIM, cause me and him are friends...and never anything else. He's just as sweet to me, though. Last night he kept helping me, cause i was a little tipsy. But anyways, Daniel is somewhat out of the picture now... I dont think he likes me, like chelsea thought he would, BUT Caleb is in the picture. Caleb is chelsea's brother.. A very sweet guy. He likes me. He kept following me around and trying to fall asleep on me, at the party i had lastnight...After the coffee shop show, we all came back to my house and kicked back. The night ended me sitting on the floor , petting his head, cause he got really drunk. He was holding my hand and stroking it. I thought that was the sweetest thing, even though he probably didnt even know what he was doing... i dunno. But maybe i'll give the guy a try? I really need someone in mylife... all this loneliness has somewhat gone to my head, so im left with low selfesteem, and worse...I need a guy that will care. And well......he seems to fit that perspective. Lets just see where this goes..
PS: SoCo didnt get in my way this time (yay!) i was just buzzed the whole night. Im sooo good , haha.