Look at the Stars, look how they shine for you
I really wish i didnt see him.. but i just felt like i had to.
Me, Andrew, Jen, Ash and Nels went to Gameworks, it wasnt fun for me.. not even a little bit. The whole time i just wanted to drop dead, or have a complete break down. But, i keep myself together really well these days, i only sheded a few tears that no one notice.. i hope.
We came back to my house, and we gave him his cards.. idk, Me and him were avoiding eachother, just seeing him reminded me of what im missing, of how much i still feel for him.. but, fuck that shit, he doesnt even care for me. The only reason why we hung out was cause he missed my friends.. my friends, not me.
I really should be getting used to not being worth anything, not good enough, and just being left behind..
Im really sick of pretending to be happy.. I think im just gonna settle on being depressed for a few days, i have no energy to even try to fake things right now.. sorry.
Gawd, im glad i have Vodka in my closet, damn. I think im gonna go get "looped" as my mom would say it.
Alcohol, Cigs, Weed, damn its just the answer to alotta problems these days, isnt it?
Seriously.. what was I expecting? What were WE expecting?
I hate complaining, but i hear myself do it all the time. Maybe i should just start being silent, well.. actually.. i am silent alotta days now, just cause i dont really have anything left to say to this world.. gawd, when are things gonna change and get better? when?!?!?! WHEN!? fuck.
I miss you so much
and you dont even know it..
Me, Andrew, Jen, Ash and Nels went to Gameworks, it wasnt fun for me.. not even a little bit. The whole time i just wanted to drop dead, or have a complete break down. But, i keep myself together really well these days, i only sheded a few tears that no one notice.. i hope.
We came back to my house, and we gave him his cards.. idk, Me and him were avoiding eachother, just seeing him reminded me of what im missing, of how much i still feel for him.. but, fuck that shit, he doesnt even care for me. The only reason why we hung out was cause he missed my friends.. my friends, not me.
I really should be getting used to not being worth anything, not good enough, and just being left behind..
Im really sick of pretending to be happy.. I think im just gonna settle on being depressed for a few days, i have no energy to even try to fake things right now.. sorry.
Gawd, im glad i have Vodka in my closet, damn. I think im gonna go get "looped" as my mom would say it.
Alcohol, Cigs, Weed, damn its just the answer to alotta problems these days, isnt it?
Seriously.. what was I expecting? What were WE expecting?
I hate complaining, but i hear myself do it all the time. Maybe i should just start being silent, well.. actually.. i am silent alotta days now, just cause i dont really have anything left to say to this world.. gawd, when are things gonna change and get better? when?!?!?! WHEN!? fuck.
I miss you so much
and you dont even know it..