Direction
I went to my econ teachers office today to ask a question about a paper that is due... Instead of talking about the paper, he wanted to talk about me. He wanted to know who I am. He has expressed interest (I dont mean in a romantic way) in me by 'picking' at me in class. He has even given me the nickname Warcraft since day one. But what he wanted to talk about was that I look like a very interesting person, but I seem like Im lost. I had no idea I was walking into a phyciatrists office..lol. He pointed out that I skip alot and dont pay much attention when Im there....yet made one of the highest scores on the test. He asked me tons of questions about me and decided that I dont have my life going in any direction. I though me being in college was going in a direction. Apparently he means something a bit deeper than that. As in I dont have something that is rewarding to my general happiness. I just took it as constructive critisism and pushed it aside.
When I was driving home, I really began to think about the conversation that had just happened. It struck me he is right. I dont have direction. What am I working towards? An accounting degree that isnt going to bring me much happiness, considering my true passion is helping people and more so animals. What do I do in the mean time.... I play my video games, I watch television, I adore my cats, I try to at least keep a tiny social life. None of it actually makes me feel satisfied or complete. What is going to make me feel that feeling??? I dont even have anything in mind that can bring me that feeling. I never thought about it really. Now Im just sorta depressed and not as happy with myself as I was before the convo..
When I was driving home, I really began to think about the conversation that had just happened. It struck me he is right. I dont have direction. What am I working towards? An accounting degree that isnt going to bring me much happiness, considering my true passion is helping people and more so animals. What do I do in the mean time.... I play my video games, I watch television, I adore my cats, I try to at least keep a tiny social life. None of it actually makes me feel satisfied or complete. What is going to make me feel that feeling??? I dont even have anything in mind that can bring me that feeling. I never thought about it really. Now Im just sorta depressed and not as happy with myself as I was before the convo..