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I have crept back in The Hole. The Hole is this depressed state of mind I get into when I start to think about how many years I have left. How morbid is that? I start thinking about people I love and care about and how it would feel to lose them. This all started when I had cancer and lost my dad the same year. I wish I could control it but lately the only thing that seems to be on my mind is Death and what can be more depressing than that.
My dad dies 6 years ago and I lost my ability to have kids 2 months later so there's the anniversary of that. On the bright side, it's 6 years of being cancer-free.
Does anyone else get these morbid thoughts?
My dad dies 6 years ago and I lost my ability to have kids 2 months later so there's the anniversary of that. On the bright side, it's 6 years of being cancer-free.
Does anyone else get these morbid thoughts?