Ah, it's that time of year again...
It has been a long time, eh, Journal? I know it and I'm sorry for it.
It has been a very very long year, I'll blame the lapse on that.
My Journal friends, I have missed you.
There really isn't much to tell. It has been a trying few months. On 11/10/10, I was fired from my job - erroneously - but most of you know that already if you're on FaceBook. If you are not, here is a sum-up:
I was fired for being unhappy after weeks and weeks of being over-worked and yelled at because I couldn't keep up with the work. I would have been able to do so had we had enough help. So, it was true that I was unhappy, but what is NOT correct is that I was the only one.
In other words, I was fired as a warning to other employees.
C'est la vie.
Now, about the Great Experiment.
It's not really an experiment, more a journal regarding my feelings, impressions and reactions while I once again join the exercise bandwagon.
There are several reasons that I need to lose weight - here I record them for my own information:
1) I don't want Type2 diabetes. I have a good chance of developing this malady; losing weight may save me from the needles and a potentially painful death.
2) Mike and I were once again on the infertility treatment trail this year and the last attempt, while it looked good, I lost the pregnancy only 2 days after it began. I may or may not have been pregnant, but the signs were all good. The doctor still doesn't know what is wrong with us, but I have a feeling it IS my weight. True, women that are vastly larger than myself have gotten pregnant, but...
3) I want to try IVF the next time we do try. It will be a couple of years as we need approx $10K for ONE attempt (my Paypal account is twisebaker@neo.rr.com if someone should feel the goodness in their heart to donate). When we try it I want to be as healthy as I can.
4) I'm 33 years old now. My body is physically feeling like I'm about 50 years old - I have bad knees, a bad back (worse because of my gut), all my tendons in the lower half of my body are unhappy and I have a feeling I have an undiagnosed case of fibromyalgia, and I know from talk and reading that the best way to help me in this case is to lose the weight. If I'm still having all the joint pain afterwards, I'll look into getting diagnosed.
And so, Journal friends, I'm starting at around 360 lbs at 6 feet tall and stating January 2nd (it's a sunday and in my mind a more "even" place to start). I'll post my exact weight and the impressions of that day and I hope that relieving these anxieties and pains I'll be able to continue on what I hope is a good path.
Take care, Journal-people. And Happy New Year.