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[imgonnakillu]

well i just got done talking to amanda for a little bit, (she snuck a call)... she says she misses me, and that she wants to be with me (w00t) but she also says she likes being single too. i just hope she finds the love she seems to have for me and i hope that the saying (love always prevails) is true. i feel like im home sick and i dont eat as much as i used to. noones wants to go out with me anyway so it doesnt even matter if they do because it doesnt matter to me... i want to make amanda see how much she matters to me... i have all this love and caring to give to her but she doesnt want it right now... i just hope she finds it in her heart to love me and care about me as she used too. noone knows how much of a great person she was, and how much better she made me feel about myself... she could just look at you and ou could see love in her eyes. when she huggs me it feels like everything is going to be ok, as if nothing could bring us down. i want this empty void filled back with her, and for everything to get along with me and her parents. Her whole family was great to me and i even miss them too.

i dont know what to do with myself. just sit and wait i suppose. i just hope she cares about me as much as she did before... and that we dont have this problem again.

beleive me or not, my love is forreal.