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i suppose its time to update this baby again
oklahoma ended tonight and as sad and girly as it sounds i feel like a whole piece of me is being removed.
ive never really felt as pleased and happy with a show as i did with oklahoma - its so strange.
i feel like i FINALLY had my chance to prove to every single person i am talented and im a SUPERSTAR!! haha
its true though, i felt like people just saw me as the usual guy who did theatre, but now i really feel like ive changed alot of peoples opinons about me..and im happy with that. but its going to be so strange not going to a theatre or a rehersal every night anymore. ive been doing nonstop shows pretty much this past year (it sounds like such a long time, geez) and im not going to be doing another show for a LONG time, i might not even be doing les mis...which would mean i wouldnt be doing another one until next fall which is crazy and i dont know if i can handle that. ill probably do les mis though.
i hate school so much. i get this nasty feeling in my stomach everytime i think about it. i honestly would probably sell my soul to the freakin devil if he would let me get out of school and become famous. i shouldnt say that though because now its probably a done deal and im going to spend eternity in the fire pits of hell. good god, why am i thinking about things like this?!
latley ive been very worried im going to have a mental/emotional/crazy breakdown sometimes between the age of now and 30 years old and the thought freaks me out alot. do normal people think thoughts like this?? i doubt it. oh well, maybe someone will make a movie or write a book about my mental problems. it could be cool..
i completley love someone and its not like i want to date them and marry them, and its someone who no one could even guess who id feel like that - its nuts. but again, my life is nuts. i just wish i could be more like this person or be around them more and just absorb thier goodness. i never even see the person that much, so its kind of strange.
when you least expect it and think things just couldnt get any worse, thats when the goodness of life might just knock the wind out of you.
i love that quote so so so much.
oklahoma ended tonight and as sad and girly as it sounds i feel like a whole piece of me is being removed.
ive never really felt as pleased and happy with a show as i did with oklahoma - its so strange.
i feel like i FINALLY had my chance to prove to every single person i am talented and im a SUPERSTAR!! haha
its true though, i felt like people just saw me as the usual guy who did theatre, but now i really feel like ive changed alot of peoples opinons about me..and im happy with that. but its going to be so strange not going to a theatre or a rehersal every night anymore. ive been doing nonstop shows pretty much this past year (it sounds like such a long time, geez) and im not going to be doing another show for a LONG time, i might not even be doing les mis...which would mean i wouldnt be doing another one until next fall which is crazy and i dont know if i can handle that. ill probably do les mis though.
i hate school so much. i get this nasty feeling in my stomach everytime i think about it. i honestly would probably sell my soul to the freakin devil if he would let me get out of school and become famous. i shouldnt say that though because now its probably a done deal and im going to spend eternity in the fire pits of hell. good god, why am i thinking about things like this?!
latley ive been very worried im going to have a mental/emotional/crazy breakdown sometimes between the age of now and 30 years old and the thought freaks me out alot. do normal people think thoughts like this?? i doubt it. oh well, maybe someone will make a movie or write a book about my mental problems. it could be cool..
i completley love someone and its not like i want to date them and marry them, and its someone who no one could even guess who id feel like that - its nuts. but again, my life is nuts. i just wish i could be more like this person or be around them more and just absorb thier goodness. i never even see the person that much, so its kind of strange.
when you least expect it and think things just couldnt get any worse, thats when the goodness of life might just knock the wind out of you.
i love that quote so so so much.