Nov 23, 2005 20:19
its been an incredibly long time since ive written in this.
in the past few months i'd like to think ive learned a few things. i'd like to think i've grown a bit. i continue to think more and more about what i want to do with the rest of my life. music doesn't seem like its going to fill the main part of it. a few months ago i was so dead set on moving to california and studying photography in san fransisco. now, it's more like studying graphic design in kirtland. which im fine with, i guess. the temperture dropped here very rapidly and so did my confidence in my future. i guess, i still have quite some time to figure things out, but i'd wish i'd do it a little quicker. in 1 month and seven days i will be 21 years old. exciting. but i will also still be living at home and working at home depot and not doing much of anything else. school starts in january and that will be occupying my mondays and wednesdays. as for the other five days of the week, those shall be consumed by vast amounts of home depot. it always seems that when you have tons to do, that time flys by so fast. is that how this is going to be? will those next four months just fly by? will never having a day off be tiring? probably, but it should go by quickly, right? i sure fucking hope so.
ive been writing tons and tons of songs lately. recording them to. its been fun, but at times, boring.
a line from a song i wrote yesterday that i think is quite fitting with today topic: "these calender days, are marked with red x's. as weeks turn to months turn to years and they're gone."
so what happens when all the leaves fall from their trees
and both they and the streets are bare
when there is no one left in this town
except for the ghosts of shopping malls
and all our late night escapades
i will turn to you
and you will say
we had all our fun
while we were young
but now...