what do you live for...
i think that i may head to turlock tonight. i need to straighten out the mess in my head. i feel like maybe i can find some answers there. silly, i didn't even know that i had questions. i thought being sober would make everything click into place. but sometimes i'm even more at a loss than i was before. i'm moving to auburn. i think that may be the reason this anxiety is seeping through the cracks in my solid front. it's been awhile since i knew where home was. i wish i was a snail. wherever i was, i would be home. i could travel anywhere and know that i was where i belonged. that's how i think that i should feel. that secure in myself, that full of purpose. but, how to get there? help?
i always knew i was a vampire.
i always knew i was a vampire.