There are so many things i want to show to you (Chapter 14 & 15)
Title: There are so many things i want to show to you (Chapter 14 & 15)
Rating: PG
Length: Chaptered (Drabble series)
Pairing: Hyukhae
Genre: Drama, Romance, Angst (Maybe), AU!School
Word Count: 695; 661
Disclaimer: No matter how hard i wish for them, they will never be mine :(
Claimer: The fic is mine
Summary: Was that hatred i saw in your eyes?
Beta-ed by: vivalahyuk
Ime's Note: Really dun like to see someone deleted their account. eunhaesherry dear, dun purged your account nee? For you.
Previous chapters: Chapter 1 & 2. Chapter 3 & 4. Chapter 5 & 6. Chapter 7. (Chapter 8 & 9). (Chapter 10 & 11). (Chapter 12 & 13).
-Fourteenth thing
When Hyukjae arrived to the hospital again, Donghae had already been moved to other room. He knew because he got a text from Donghae’s number and didn’t dare to think why whoever the sender was bothered to inform him.
He knocked on the door and greeted by a middle aged women from yesterday that smile tiredly at him. “Hello dear,” and much to Hyukjae’s surprise, she hugged him tightly.
Donghae was lying as lifelessly as the last time he saw him. Soft bipping sounds was heard from equipments that planted on his body. His tanned skin gradually paler due to lack of blood. His chest was falling up and down steadily in a fine rhythm.
“Is he okay?” Hyukjae bravely asked the woman.
“Yes he is,” she pulled Hyukjae down to sit at a chair and decided to keep talking, “We meet his doctor yesterday, and it’s not that really worrisome.”
Hyukjae looked at the woman curiously, “What happened to him?”
“He just exhausted,” the women sighed, but then continued, “He tend to have ischemia if he over worked his body…you know… a symptom when your heart didn’t pump fast enough to supply the body proper blood amount? And then your lungs do the same,” she paused and looked at Hyukjae who was listening eagerly.
“Usually it just make him weak and sick but he’ll be alright after sometimes. Only, this one he got heart failure because his ischemia didn’t get treat immediately and lead to Myocardial Infarction or heart attack,”
“Heart attack?” Hyukjae asked in surprise. How come Donghae could play soccer if he have heart disease?
The woman smiles and continued, “You see, me and his dad didn’t plan him. I was 44 when I was bearing him. I didn’t even realize it after 3 months. Doctor said it was High-Risk Pregnancy not just only because I was over 40 but also because we have ischemia heart disease history in our family. It was risky but we decided to have him,” she paused and smiled, got amused by watching Hyukjae’s change of expression.
“I got surgery of giving birth of him. He was just 7 months old when the doctor decided to take early action because if we didn’t, he’ll be dead right on my wombs,” she sighed again and continued, “And so he had to use an incubator for about 7 months for treating his first heart failure,” she chuckled bitterly, “heart failure right after born, but he was alright. He has grown to be a cheerful and active kid.”
“Doctor said as long as we got to take care of his ischemia, he’ll be okay. As long as he doesn’t exhaust himself…” she laughed darkly then said, “It was working pretty well until now,” but then she got worried when he saw Hyukjae. “Dear, are you okay?”
Hyukjae nodded his head just for the sake of it, because he’s not really okay. The whole night he spent on blaming himself and Donghae’s mother just said it right to his face that it was indeed his fault.
Donghae was obedient kid, so it’s no wonder why he never got heart attack since he always took care of his body as his parent told him so. Hyukjae the one who made Donghae who just finished the extra hours of soccer practice to run and over worked his body and made him psychically exhausted and lead him to deadly symptom.
“Don’t blame yourself, dear,” she said, as if she knew what was happening on Hyukjae’s head right now, “It’s no one’s fault. Let’s just hope he will get better soon alright?” and she patted Hyukjae’s head softly.
“I’m sorry,” Hyukjae chocked on his sobs. And she just kept on patting him.
“Maybe you want to talk to him?” she suggested after Hyukjae calmed down and didn’t wait to Hyukjae reply as she got up and in attempt to leave the room, “I’ll get us coff-”
“Why are you telling me all this?”
She gazed but then just gave a sad smile to Hyukjae, “I thought it might be, somehow, help you,” and before Hyukjae could said anything again, she disappeared behind the door.
-Fifteenth thing
Despite of the pathetic condition, Donghae was smiling. There was a small smile graced his face. There’s rubber tube on his nose that connected to weird equipment and ended in huge oxygen tank on which a weird plastic tube filled with water emitted burping sound.
Some weird wires from electronic equipment that kept producing bip-bip sound ended under his blanket. Another rubber tube on his wrist was the only source of glucose for Donghae.
A numerous of needle marks were on the same hand as infused wrist.
Hyukjae reached over to touch Donghae’s fingers and it’s cold, but Hyukjae couldn’t bring himself crying in front of Donghae. Even if he unconscious, Hyukjae believes he could still feel his surrounding, including hearing.
Hyukjae was the one who hurt Donghae, so he didn’t know if Donghae wanted him to be on his side. Maybe squeezed on his cold hand can expressed how sorry he was? Hyukjae wanted to touch Donghae more, but he was too dirty for him.
He only thought negative things and got depressed if he kept sitting beside Donghae. So Hyukjae got up and left him alone in the room.
A few minutes later, Donghae mother came back with one cup of coffee for him. She gave Hyukjae the cup (“Thank you” Hyukjae whispered softly.) and asked him why he was outside. But Hyukjae was making nonsense excuse until finally the woman got back inside the room.
Hyukjae sipped on the black coffee, not really registered what he was doing, staring blankly outside the windows in the waiting room just outside Donghae’ room. It’s almost lunch and Hyukjae’s phone vibrating. He fished the small device and greeted the other line. He met with a panic Junsu.
“HYUKJAEYOUSONOFYOURMOTHERWHEREAREYOU?OHGODWHERE.EVER.YOU.ARE.MAKE.SURE.TO.NOT.RUN.INTO.CHO.KYUHYUN.OR.KIM.HEECHUL.THEYARESOINRAGEANDYOUARESODEAD!!!!!!!”
“What did you say again?”
Junsu took deep breath and started from the beginning, “Cho Kyuhyun and Kim Heechul just came to us to ask where the hell you are and that’s exactly what I wanted to ask you man!”
Hyukjae didn’t answer, he knew Junsu will continue anyway, “What the hell are you doing to Lee Donghae? They are so pissed, so in rage and ready to kill you at the moment they see your ugly face!!!”
“You’re really screwed Hyukjae! I told you not to involve with them! There’s a lot of hot guys you can play with for Goodness sake!”
“And Sungmin told me that you’re in love with him?” Junsu asked as if Sungmin said the most ridiculous thing in the world. “And man, you sleep with him!”
Hyukjae digest the information Junsu gave slowly, but his head refused to work when Junsu said something about love.
“And you know what Hyukjae? It’s so damn chaos here everybody was talking about it!”
Huh? What? “Everybody what?” Hyukjae asked, confused.
“Everybody is talking about you and Lee Donghae who had a fight yesterday and about you two who didn’t go to school and about you two that making up your fight with sex.” Judge from his voice, Junsu was not kidding.
It doesn’t make any sense.
“It is make sense,” said Junsu, apparently Hyukjae just said the words out loud.
“No, wait, so nobody in school know where Donghae is?”
“And where you are,” Junsu added but then continue when Hyukjae didn’t respond, “What’s wrong with you and this whole secrecy? Just tell me what happened!”
Hyukjae sighed and finally decided just to tell Junsu. They will know anytime soon anyway, “Donghae got heart attack.”
Silent in other line. “I’m in hospital right now,”
“Are you serious?”
“Yes, I’m serious,”
“Oh my God! But so why didn’t you tell Sungmin earlier? You idiot!”
“Because… because I thought maybe… maybe it’s my fault.”
“Wait? What? Since when you’re feeling guilty about something?” Junsu squeaked, it was just right then everything what Sungmin said made sense to him, “Oh my God you’re in love with him!”
Hyukjae had to agree, because he couldn’t find any other reason that could explain this all.
Ime's Note: The story havent going anywhere... only further explanation :D