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I know it’s been awhile, sometimes I just feel like letting things go. I am a huge procrastinator as it is. I need to study up for my exam in History and that hasn’t happened yet. I have to take it next Wednesday so I figure fuck it I still gotta week left.
You think I would have something to say since I haven’t written in forever, but I just don’t know where to begin.
I got invited into this secret club today. I almost laughed when the guy who invited me mentioned it but then I was sort of curious. I guess it’s just a club. He said that the people in it have to invite people who would be a great time, people that like to party. They even have these membership cards. I am still a little unsure but like always I am sure my curiosity will get the best of me.
I asked my beloved boyfriend, Ej, to bring me some dinner tonight (im at work). I really hope he does. I have been doing so great working out and not eating fast food and then today, like no other I have been craving it so bad. Can you believe I have even convinced my boyfriend (Ej) into working out with me! I am so proud of him.
I have it scheduled for me and him to go to that bed and breakfast in a couple of weeks. I am very excited about it. I just know I am going to love it. I could deal without the three hour drive to get there but I know it will be worth it. We are going to have this beautiful canopy bed, a fire place in the room, and a nice hot tub. A real jacuzzi tub not just a big bath tub with jets. I mean those are nice too but I wanted a real one. This place also has an indoor pool and figuring the time of year and the day we are going I think that we might be like the only ones there. I really can’t wait. I am egger to start packing my bags…but I must wait.
I have an expectation of myself, to workout after work. Now that I am approaching the end of my work day I am starting to realize I am not as motivated now as I was when I made that expectation. I just wanna go home. I would rather go tanning then go work out. I can’t make it to both. It’s such a sad thing.
Things keep looking up for everybody else I know. Ej just called and said he got a new job, which is great for him. I heard from my mom and she just got two bonus child support checks. I call them a bonus because she rarely gets them and when she does its like a bonus because she can’t ever count on them. Plus it would be nice if they came more then once every three months. It’s so ridiculous. Needless, I am happy she got something, even better when it comes right before Christmas.
I was thinking of what I would want if I could have anything I wanted for Christmas and I really could not come up with anything I wanted. The things I wanted a while ago I just went out and bought myself. Poor Ej, he was really mad at me for it too. He is out of ideas now. That means I got everything I want right?!? I suppose if I was ‘wishing big’ I would want a new car. Not new, just something i could really count on.
I use to think I wanted to move out and recently the option has arose where I prolly could move out now, but I decided no. Now I really don’t want to. I want to stay home. Even though its not free rent anymore (thanks mom) it is still way better then having to pay for EVERY thing on my own, my mom still helps me a lot. I like the company too. Well most of the time I enjoy the company, except for when the company is having a bad day and acts like a bitch! That’s not too often though.
I really am tired. My strenuous job is just killing me. (haha) if anybody knows my work you would so understand why that’s funny.
I think I am going to find some clever way to waste another hour and a half before I can leave this place. I am sure that will consist of an hour or so on myspace, or reading other peoples journals.
XoxO.