Recent Event
Yeah so I was going to make a massive post about what's up lately, what with being in college now, but my entry got overwritten, so that's going to wait until later.
asphyxiateit (7:32:49 PM): lmao Wasted Wednesday
undetermined34 (6:32:53 PM): yes
asphyxiateit (7:33:03 PM): dude my dorm number is 732-373-8097
undetermined34 (6:32:58 PM): you?
asphyxiateit (7:33:10 PM): last week
asphyxiateit (7:33:16 PM): went to a frat party at the gay frat
asphyxiateit (7:33:19 PM): the only frat I go to
undetermined34 (6:33:46 PM): there is a gay frat?
asphyxiateit (7:33:59 PM): yep
asphyxiateit (7:34:13 PM): anyone can go, though
undetermined34 (6:34:11 PM): i dont have a dorm number just my cell
asphyxiateit (7:34:31 PM): well I can't make outgoing calls
asphyxiateit (7:34:37 PM): and we get no reception in the dorm, really, besides texting
asphyxiateit (7:34:40 PM): that's why I got a landline phone
undetermined34 (6:34:49 PM): oh
undetermined34 (6:35:25 PM): so it is saying u arent online right now
asphyxiateit (7:36:11 PM): I am invisible because I don't feel like talking to people for hours
asphyxiateit (7:36:23 PM): unless I IM them
undetermined34 (6:36:26 PM): ok lol
asphyxiateit (7:37:24 PM): so how are things?
undetermined34 (6:38:25 PM): goo bad ugly
undetermined34 (6:38:29 PM): u?
asphyxiateit (7:39:05 PM): same
asphyxiateit (7:39:08 PM): college is fine
undetermined34 (6:39:10 PM): yeah class is good
undetermined34 (6:39:13 PM): lots of random sex
undetermined34 (6:39:15 PM): u know
asphyxiateit (7:39:22 PM): lol!
undetermined34 (6:39:20 PM): how are you an d mike?
asphyxiateit (7:39:37 PM): we were great until this weekend
undetermined34 (6:39:49 PM): y?
asphyxiateit (7:40:22 PM): I went home that Friday and said I'd see Resident Evil with him and his friends because I didn't have plans that night, but when I got home I was talking to Paul and I realized how lame it would be to go see Resident Evil with a bunch of dudes when I'm only there for that weekend
asphyxiateit (7:40:25 PM): I didn't feel like wasting three hours
asphyxiateit (7:40:43 PM): so I cancelled plans, and Mike got really infuriated because I used to get mad when he cancelled plans
asphyxiateit (7:41:10 PM): so he came over after and we got into a big argument because he was comparing it to when he cancelled plans I made with him to go to my cousin's party this summer
asphyxiateit (7:41:42 PM): I said how they were different because I had made plans with him a week before he cancelled and periodically reconfirmed them, and he cancelled that day, the day after we got into an argument where I said I wanted to be a priority to him
asphyxiateit (7:42:03 PM): I explained why I didn't want to go and he thought I was trying to make excuses when I was just saying why I didn't think that I was being a hypocrite
asphyxiateit (7:42:12 PM): and he got pissed that I didn't say I'm sorry right away
asphyxiateit (7:42:49 PM): and also I forgot to call him on his birthday, which was a huge mistake that I already apologized intensely for, and I got him a great birthday gift and told him how bad I felt because it was important to him even if birthdays aren't to me
asphyxiateit (7:42:54 PM): but yeah he was so angry
asphyxiateit (7:43:13 PM): and he kept yelling at me and cursing and was going to leave, but I stood in front of the door so he couldn't just walk out on me
asphyxiateit (7:43:31 PM): but he kept yelling until I got really upset and started crying, and I told him I didn't want to because I knew that would piss him off more
undetermined34 (6:43:27 PM): ha
asphyxiateit (7:43:52 PM): and he was like, I don't care if you're upset, and that he didn't care if I cried or not, and then he told me to go cry upstairs
undetermined34 (6:44:00 PM): break up with him
asphyxiateit (7:44:15 PM): I didn't know what to do, so I kept saying that I felt bad and was crying, and he was like FINE and went upstairs
undetermined34 (6:44:14 PM): my friend here is going through something like that and it sucks
asphyxiateit (7:44:41 PM): then I went upstairs and we talked and ended up arguing more, and he left and was going to his car, so I went out in my underwear without shoes and was trying to talk to him
asphyxiateit (7:44:51 PM): and he was like, if you don't want me to get mad at you then don't treat me like shit
asphyxiateit (7:45:01 PM): and was like, you're just fucking up lately, and you can't deal with me being upset
asphyxiateit (7:45:23 PM): and was like, I'm not going to be a doormat and just fold over, and I'm too nice to you when we argue
asphyxiateit (7:45:35 PM): and I said there is a difference between bending over and not treating me the way he was
asphyxiateit (7:46:00 PM): and he ended up saying something like, you can just do what you did to your first boyfriend and fuck some other guy, because you have so many opportunities to and I don't
asphyxiateit (7:46:17 PM): and my jaw dropped and I started crying really hard and went inside and to my room, and I have never cried that hard in my life
asphyxiateit (7:46:20 PM): I was screaming crying
asphyxiateit (7:46:37 PM): and I heard his car start and he was going to leave, but he came upstairs and was freaking out because he saw how upset I was
asphyxiateit (7:47:02 PM): and was like, I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that, but I was so fucking upset and just kept crying until my throat was shot and I could barely make sounds
asphyxiateit (7:47:29 PM): I kept trying to leave but he wouldn't let me, so when I calmed down I went past him and got into my car, and he was like where are you going, but I didn't answer and drove to Paul's
asphyxiateit (7:47:33 PM): and he followed me but he kept driving home
asphyxiateit (7:48:02 PM): and I was still really upset at Paul's, so he let me in and I told him what he said, and he made me tea and I slept there and we hung out the next day
undetermined34 (6:48:09 PM): good
asphyxiateit (7:48:18 PM): and Mike came over that night and we talked about it, and things are okay now but just really weird
asphyxiateit (7:48:25 PM): so I don't know what's going on
asphyxiateit (7:48:39 PM): I feel like we don't have anything to say to each other anymore. But he's really sorry and feels terrible.
asphyxiateit (7:49:51 PM): I don't know
asphyxiateit (7:50:03 PM): that is the meanest thing anyone has ever said to me
asphyxiateit (7:50:19 PM): because I could have hooked up with so many guys and I really liked this one guy Ralph, but I didn't do anything
asphyxiateit (7:50:32 PM): and everyone around here is hooking up and people are breaking up, but I never wanted to be with anyone else
undetermined34 (6:53:46 PM): you wante to be with paul a while ago but held your true emotions back
undetermined34 (6:53:58 PM): i would say to end it now so you can have the college experience
asphyxiateit (7:54:15 PM): I don't know
asphyxiateit (7:54:21 PM): I'm going to give it a while and see how things are
asphyxiateit (7:54:28 PM): if they don't get better I will
asphyxiateit (7:54:47 PM): which makes me kind of scared and sad, but yeah
undetermined34 (6:54:47 PM): dont be
undetermined34 (6:55:04 PM): i have a similar problem here and it is really bad
asphyxiateit (7:55:18 PM): your friend?
undetermined34 (6:55:33 PM): yeah my new roommate and his gf kind of
asphyxiateit (7:56:05 PM): new roommate?
undetermined34 (6:56:15 PM): yeah we need to talk like on the phone we havent talke in forever
undetermined34 (6:56:24 PM): i'll call u now
asphyxiateit (7:56:35 PM): w0rd
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asphyxiateit (7:32:49 PM): lmao Wasted Wednesday
undetermined34 (6:32:53 PM): yes
asphyxiateit (7:33:03 PM): dude my dorm number is 732-373-8097
undetermined34 (6:32:58 PM): you?
asphyxiateit (7:33:10 PM): last week
asphyxiateit (7:33:16 PM): went to a frat party at the gay frat
asphyxiateit (7:33:19 PM): the only frat I go to
undetermined34 (6:33:46 PM): there is a gay frat?
asphyxiateit (7:33:59 PM): yep
asphyxiateit (7:34:13 PM): anyone can go, though
undetermined34 (6:34:11 PM): i dont have a dorm number just my cell
asphyxiateit (7:34:31 PM): well I can't make outgoing calls
asphyxiateit (7:34:37 PM): and we get no reception in the dorm, really, besides texting
asphyxiateit (7:34:40 PM): that's why I got a landline phone
undetermined34 (6:34:49 PM): oh
undetermined34 (6:35:25 PM): so it is saying u arent online right now
asphyxiateit (7:36:11 PM): I am invisible because I don't feel like talking to people for hours
asphyxiateit (7:36:23 PM): unless I IM them
undetermined34 (6:36:26 PM): ok lol
asphyxiateit (7:37:24 PM): so how are things?
undetermined34 (6:38:25 PM): goo bad ugly
undetermined34 (6:38:29 PM): u?
asphyxiateit (7:39:05 PM): same
asphyxiateit (7:39:08 PM): college is fine
undetermined34 (6:39:10 PM): yeah class is good
undetermined34 (6:39:13 PM): lots of random sex
undetermined34 (6:39:15 PM): u know
asphyxiateit (7:39:22 PM): lol!
undetermined34 (6:39:20 PM): how are you an d mike?
asphyxiateit (7:39:37 PM): we were great until this weekend
undetermined34 (6:39:49 PM): y?
asphyxiateit (7:40:22 PM): I went home that Friday and said I'd see Resident Evil with him and his friends because I didn't have plans that night, but when I got home I was talking to Paul and I realized how lame it would be to go see Resident Evil with a bunch of dudes when I'm only there for that weekend
asphyxiateit (7:40:25 PM): I didn't feel like wasting three hours
asphyxiateit (7:40:43 PM): so I cancelled plans, and Mike got really infuriated because I used to get mad when he cancelled plans
asphyxiateit (7:41:10 PM): so he came over after and we got into a big argument because he was comparing it to when he cancelled plans I made with him to go to my cousin's party this summer
asphyxiateit (7:41:42 PM): I said how they were different because I had made plans with him a week before he cancelled and periodically reconfirmed them, and he cancelled that day, the day after we got into an argument where I said I wanted to be a priority to him
asphyxiateit (7:42:03 PM): I explained why I didn't want to go and he thought I was trying to make excuses when I was just saying why I didn't think that I was being a hypocrite
asphyxiateit (7:42:12 PM): and he got pissed that I didn't say I'm sorry right away
asphyxiateit (7:42:49 PM): and also I forgot to call him on his birthday, which was a huge mistake that I already apologized intensely for, and I got him a great birthday gift and told him how bad I felt because it was important to him even if birthdays aren't to me
asphyxiateit (7:42:54 PM): but yeah he was so angry
asphyxiateit (7:43:13 PM): and he kept yelling at me and cursing and was going to leave, but I stood in front of the door so he couldn't just walk out on me
asphyxiateit (7:43:31 PM): but he kept yelling until I got really upset and started crying, and I told him I didn't want to because I knew that would piss him off more
undetermined34 (6:43:27 PM): ha
asphyxiateit (7:43:52 PM): and he was like, I don't care if you're upset, and that he didn't care if I cried or not, and then he told me to go cry upstairs
undetermined34 (6:44:00 PM): break up with him
asphyxiateit (7:44:15 PM): I didn't know what to do, so I kept saying that I felt bad and was crying, and he was like FINE and went upstairs
undetermined34 (6:44:14 PM): my friend here is going through something like that and it sucks
asphyxiateit (7:44:41 PM): then I went upstairs and we talked and ended up arguing more, and he left and was going to his car, so I went out in my underwear without shoes and was trying to talk to him
asphyxiateit (7:44:51 PM): and he was like, if you don't want me to get mad at you then don't treat me like shit
asphyxiateit (7:45:01 PM): and was like, you're just fucking up lately, and you can't deal with me being upset
asphyxiateit (7:45:23 PM): and was like, I'm not going to be a doormat and just fold over, and I'm too nice to you when we argue
asphyxiateit (7:45:35 PM): and I said there is a difference between bending over and not treating me the way he was
asphyxiateit (7:46:00 PM): and he ended up saying something like, you can just do what you did to your first boyfriend and fuck some other guy, because you have so many opportunities to and I don't
asphyxiateit (7:46:17 PM): and my jaw dropped and I started crying really hard and went inside and to my room, and I have never cried that hard in my life
asphyxiateit (7:46:20 PM): I was screaming crying
asphyxiateit (7:46:37 PM): and I heard his car start and he was going to leave, but he came upstairs and was freaking out because he saw how upset I was
asphyxiateit (7:47:02 PM): and was like, I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that, but I was so fucking upset and just kept crying until my throat was shot and I could barely make sounds
asphyxiateit (7:47:29 PM): I kept trying to leave but he wouldn't let me, so when I calmed down I went past him and got into my car, and he was like where are you going, but I didn't answer and drove to Paul's
asphyxiateit (7:47:33 PM): and he followed me but he kept driving home
asphyxiateit (7:48:02 PM): and I was still really upset at Paul's, so he let me in and I told him what he said, and he made me tea and I slept there and we hung out the next day
undetermined34 (6:48:09 PM): good
asphyxiateit (7:48:18 PM): and Mike came over that night and we talked about it, and things are okay now but just really weird
asphyxiateit (7:48:25 PM): so I don't know what's going on
asphyxiateit (7:48:39 PM): I feel like we don't have anything to say to each other anymore. But he's really sorry and feels terrible.
asphyxiateit (7:49:51 PM): I don't know
asphyxiateit (7:50:03 PM): that is the meanest thing anyone has ever said to me
asphyxiateit (7:50:19 PM): because I could have hooked up with so many guys and I really liked this one guy Ralph, but I didn't do anything
asphyxiateit (7:50:32 PM): and everyone around here is hooking up and people are breaking up, but I never wanted to be with anyone else
undetermined34 (6:53:46 PM): you wante to be with paul a while ago but held your true emotions back
undetermined34 (6:53:58 PM): i would say to end it now so you can have the college experience
asphyxiateit (7:54:15 PM): I don't know
asphyxiateit (7:54:21 PM): I'm going to give it a while and see how things are
asphyxiateit (7:54:28 PM): if they don't get better I will
asphyxiateit (7:54:47 PM): which makes me kind of scared and sad, but yeah
undetermined34 (6:54:47 PM): dont be
undetermined34 (6:55:04 PM): i have a similar problem here and it is really bad
asphyxiateit (7:55:18 PM): your friend?
undetermined34 (6:55:33 PM): yeah my new roommate and his gf kind of
asphyxiateit (7:56:05 PM): new roommate?
undetermined34 (6:56:15 PM): yeah we need to talk like on the phone we havent talke in forever
undetermined34 (6:56:24 PM): i'll call u now
asphyxiateit (7:56:35 PM): w0rd
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