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So I'm honestly in one of the greatest moods I've been in lately. Things are starting to make sense, and I'll share some of my thoughts:
So I've realized my biggest problem has been letting my fears and shit get to me. What lame kinda shit is that?? Honestly I'm sick of letting my fears control my life. I'm gonna stand back up for what I believe in and show the world who I am, whether they like it or not. I honestly haven't really really been super comfortable with who I am since 8th grade to early 9th. What bullshit... So honestly I'm not gonna sit around and be sad anymore because of my lame ass fears. I'm standing up and fighting for what I believe in, and for who I am. Seriously fucking bullshit like depression, anxiety, rape, poverty, racism, corrupt governments and that kinda bullshit can all kiss my ass. It's lame and I'm sick of it. It sucks there's not much I can really do on my own about a lot of it, but I can do something. I can stop letting it get to me, I can stop worrying about it so much. I used to be such a happy girl, well about as happy as I've ever been without having huge set backs often.
I'm strong, and no one can stop me. I'm smart, but not cocky. I'm cute, not conceited, but confident. I like to dance and don't really care how I look when I do. I'm gonna be me, I'm gonna be happy, and I'm gonna have fun again while doing it. Don't tell me I can't do something I know I can because I will use every bit of strength I have to prove you wrong, not just to prove you wrong, but to do it because I know in my heart I can. I honestly haven't been this excited in awhile and it's amazing. I just wanna jump up and down. Don't get me wrong, I'm not gonna have my bad days, believe me I will. I'm just not gonna let them get me down like they usually do. I'll cry, and sometimes go to other people about it (like a therapist, or close friends) but my crying will be done when I'm alone just to get everything out. I might not even cry, I might be the psycho standing in the middle of the street screaming my lungs out just to get all of the crap out.
People are probably like, you don't get over shit that deep, that quick. Well bite me. Knowing that I can do it is the first step and honestly the biggest for me. I've felt like I couldn't do anything lately and knowing I can is enlightening. I'm super excited. I'm not close to being really okay, but a lot closer than a few days ago. I've been doing a lot of thinking and making a lot decisions. I'm gonna show the world the awesome girl I am and stand up for what I believe in. I think everyone should it makes you feel better. I don't care if it's fucking Braveheart style, whip out that ass or genitals, let me know, I might just be the one standing next to you backing you up. Get ready, here comes Heather lol.
So I've realized my biggest problem has been letting my fears and shit get to me. What lame kinda shit is that?? Honestly I'm sick of letting my fears control my life. I'm gonna stand back up for what I believe in and show the world who I am, whether they like it or not. I honestly haven't really really been super comfortable with who I am since 8th grade to early 9th. What bullshit... So honestly I'm not gonna sit around and be sad anymore because of my lame ass fears. I'm standing up and fighting for what I believe in, and for who I am. Seriously fucking bullshit like depression, anxiety, rape, poverty, racism, corrupt governments and that kinda bullshit can all kiss my ass. It's lame and I'm sick of it. It sucks there's not much I can really do on my own about a lot of it, but I can do something. I can stop letting it get to me, I can stop worrying about it so much. I used to be such a happy girl, well about as happy as I've ever been without having huge set backs often.
I'm strong, and no one can stop me. I'm smart, but not cocky. I'm cute, not conceited, but confident. I like to dance and don't really care how I look when I do. I'm gonna be me, I'm gonna be happy, and I'm gonna have fun again while doing it. Don't tell me I can't do something I know I can because I will use every bit of strength I have to prove you wrong, not just to prove you wrong, but to do it because I know in my heart I can. I honestly haven't been this excited in awhile and it's amazing. I just wanna jump up and down. Don't get me wrong, I'm not gonna have my bad days, believe me I will. I'm just not gonna let them get me down like they usually do. I'll cry, and sometimes go to other people about it (like a therapist, or close friends) but my crying will be done when I'm alone just to get everything out. I might not even cry, I might be the psycho standing in the middle of the street screaming my lungs out just to get all of the crap out.
People are probably like, you don't get over shit that deep, that quick. Well bite me. Knowing that I can do it is the first step and honestly the biggest for me. I've felt like I couldn't do anything lately and knowing I can is enlightening. I'm super excited. I'm not close to being really okay, but a lot closer than a few days ago. I've been doing a lot of thinking and making a lot decisions. I'm gonna show the world the awesome girl I am and stand up for what I believe in. I think everyone should it makes you feel better. I don't care if it's fucking Braveheart style, whip out that ass or genitals, let me know, I might just be the one standing next to you backing you up. Get ready, here comes Heather lol.