and on the day i disappear, you'll all forget i was ever here.

[imaoutlawxx]

 You know when you're reading someone else's dying love story, and you feel your heart crushing? And you just want to curl up and cry, and it's not because of suspended belief, like a movie, you don't really care about these people and their emotions, but you just have this sinking feeling that you're really so pathetic that you need to see their relationship work out, for you to ever feel like you'll be okay again.

i don't know what's wrong with me, but with every day i don't see him, i miss a guy who i don't even like a little more. and every day i do see him, waiting for me, and feeling his hugs, i feel safe.

i hate being human, and how entirely pathetic the job description is.