[mind-the-muse] oh mamma i fear for my life from the long arm of the law
I don't know how it happened but I full on fell for that woman. It wasn't the first time I took a glimpse at the way snug jeans curved around her hips. It wasn't the time she pretended like I was her "honey bun" or whatever the hell she called me on that Job. It was one of those gradual things. Everytime I saw her I felt her absence a little bit more when she was gone. Everytime we talled it was like one more inner smirk at the way she looked at me.
See mostly I'm the type of guy who likes to get it on and get gone.
Maybe it was the time she asked me about what Sam said. "You really see me as a school girl huh?"
I don't remember how far my mouth dropped open.
All I can say is the only school girl ways I'd thought of Jo was in a short skirt and cleavage baring white shirt that left so very little to the imagination. School girl? Catholic school girl maybe. There had never been a sisterly feeling towards Jo from the time I met her to the time she started kicking my ass for being a jerk. Especially not now when she calls me boyfriend and I flounder around grasping at straws to make her happy. I fuck it up a lot but she probably expects no less from me. It's just a thing I do, somehow, in the times when she doesn't want to shoot me - she probably finds it endearing.
I think I know when it really happened though. When Sammy got posessed and for the millionth time I was trying to get Jo out of my hunt - which at the time had more to do with me than her. When it comes to Sammy I like doing things myself you know? She was patching me up and she looked at me and I guess it was just like full on falling.
I think I've been scrambling for a long time to claw my way back up. It's not like I don't love the girl and yeah, I said it, I love her. I love her in the way that I love which is reckless and dangerous and damn near crazy but there it is. It's out of character for me but Jo kind of makes me crazy so it's just one of those things you know? It makes me angry a little to have her and to have Sammy and have them care so fucking much cause now I don't want to die. I'd made my peace with it a while ago but it gets harder everyday that my bill comes close to being due.
It's just one of those things.
Muse | Dean Winchester
Fandom | Supernatural
Word Count | 462
See mostly I'm the type of guy who likes to get it on and get gone.
Maybe it was the time she asked me about what Sam said. "You really see me as a school girl huh?"
I don't remember how far my mouth dropped open.
All I can say is the only school girl ways I'd thought of Jo was in a short skirt and cleavage baring white shirt that left so very little to the imagination. School girl? Catholic school girl maybe. There had never been a sisterly feeling towards Jo from the time I met her to the time she started kicking my ass for being a jerk. Especially not now when she calls me boyfriend and I flounder around grasping at straws to make her happy. I fuck it up a lot but she probably expects no less from me. It's just a thing I do, somehow, in the times when she doesn't want to shoot me - she probably finds it endearing.
I think I know when it really happened though. When Sammy got posessed and for the millionth time I was trying to get Jo out of my hunt - which at the time had more to do with me than her. When it comes to Sammy I like doing things myself you know? She was patching me up and she looked at me and I guess it was just like full on falling.
I think I've been scrambling for a long time to claw my way back up. It's not like I don't love the girl and yeah, I said it, I love her. I love her in the way that I love which is reckless and dangerous and damn near crazy but there it is. It's out of character for me but Jo kind of makes me crazy so it's just one of those things you know? It makes me angry a little to have her and to have Sammy and have them care so fucking much cause now I don't want to die. I'd made my peace with it a while ago but it gets harder everyday that my bill comes close to being due.
It's just one of those things.
Muse | Dean Winchester
Fandom | Supernatural
Word Count | 462