birthday?
it's been 3 years since that night at score cards... "follow me" being sung to me during karoke, the aquarium and the magnolia
it's been 2 years since my crawfish boil...baby shiner running into things and causing trouble
it's been a year since ... the rickshaw drama, and the early morning that followed after. waking up to P and S.
and here i am.
life gives us moments to pause and think back, and i'm taking this one. in the past year i've been all over the map and i'm not quite sure where i am right now. last year, i never would have thought i would have seen what has transpired over the past 12 months. but as i look back... well there's not much i can say.
i am, for once, speechless.
i miss you. i love you. i hate you.
all things i wish i could say to someone that is on my mind. (or someones - plural)
i've learned clarity, and the ability to see beyond the here and now. i wish i could help my friends see this sometimes too. i've embraced my faults, and am working to make them better. The last thing i want is to hurt those that are close to me and have been there for me. i've learned the value of a dollar and what people will do when faced with money. that class is something that you're born with, it cannot be taught or bought for any price. that those that we love the most have the ability to hurt us beyond our wildest imaginations. but it's that vulnerability that makes love what it is, without it, it's simply lust. that even your true friends aren't always there to help you, but finding strength in yourself can be rewarding.
we've got plans from here on out for the birthday weekend, and i can't wait. i think all the girls need this time to regroup- as a whole, alot of them have been through it all recently. sambuca, RA, M bar, Chrome...Austin & floating the river. may there not be a moment to spare :) and i hope no one has time for looking back, at least not this weekend, we all need a break. cause for once it's all about me ! :)
it's been 2 years since my crawfish boil...baby shiner running into things and causing trouble
it's been a year since ... the rickshaw drama, and the early morning that followed after. waking up to P and S.
and here i am.
life gives us moments to pause and think back, and i'm taking this one. in the past year i've been all over the map and i'm not quite sure where i am right now. last year, i never would have thought i would have seen what has transpired over the past 12 months. but as i look back... well there's not much i can say.
i am, for once, speechless.
i miss you. i love you. i hate you.
all things i wish i could say to someone that is on my mind. (or someones - plural)
i've learned clarity, and the ability to see beyond the here and now. i wish i could help my friends see this sometimes too. i've embraced my faults, and am working to make them better. The last thing i want is to hurt those that are close to me and have been there for me. i've learned the value of a dollar and what people will do when faced with money. that class is something that you're born with, it cannot be taught or bought for any price. that those that we love the most have the ability to hurt us beyond our wildest imaginations. but it's that vulnerability that makes love what it is, without it, it's simply lust. that even your true friends aren't always there to help you, but finding strength in yourself can be rewarding.
we've got plans from here on out for the birthday weekend, and i can't wait. i think all the girls need this time to regroup- as a whole, alot of them have been through it all recently. sambuca, RA, M bar, Chrome...Austin & floating the river. may there not be a moment to spare :) and i hope no one has time for looking back, at least not this weekend, we all need a break. cause for once it's all about me ! :)