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Wow that was werid.. :) Yet it made me feel really good. :) My brother just came down and talked to me and it made me happy. I'm upset about everything that happened between Sean and I but I and everyone that I talked to said I shouldn't be with someone who calls me a phsyco bitch. It wasn't just my friends I talked to, it was also people he does too from work. I'm trying one more time with someone and then if that doesn't work I'm trying holly. Maybe I am really ready for a relationship with a girl sense I'm all fed up about this guy shit. Holly's pretty cool too, A lot older but it all works well. She keeps looking at nicole though so, I don't think it will happen.. I want to be with someone who cares about me.. yet it seems no one is out there. Theres one that I felt okay with but that doesn't matter cause he is just as bad as Sean.. :/ I miss talking to him though. I tried seeing him today so we could talk but nicole wanted to hang out with mcyds all day so I talked to Brandon and Aaron. Aaron really a great guy and thats werid for me to say because I usually want to rip off his balls. I want to be with Sean I really do.. It's just things aren't working out. He says he will call me but never does cause he is always with his friends, fine a couple of times but not all the time. He also says he will come over, yet he never does. My brother said to kick the douche to the curb.. Yet I don't think I can.. It's hard to say but I don't know, I just don't think I can be conforable *sp* with anyone else. Maybe thats why I'm hanging on. Theres another reason, of which everyone knows, but I've learned I can live without it. I mean I did for that one week. Wow.. I just don't know what to say or do anymore. I hate the way he acts when hes around his friends. He says that I'm hypocritical *sp* yet he is too and he acts like he isn't. I'm scared but I think its time.