Rant and current NCIS ficage
So yeah I'm basically going to rant about school while simultaneously informing everyone of current NCIS-ficage
I hate English and my (insert bad word here) teacher. The ironic thing is I really loved English and my English teacher last year. I mean I really loved the class and got a one hundred on my writing portfolio. My teacher insisted I go into AP and I did. She told me I would do amazing and I was feeling pretty good about entering AP and now I feel like I should drop it. My teacher gives homework up the wazoo, which I knew was going to happen. Except now she has made little due dates everyday so like the introduction to an essay will be due, then the next day the body etc. Who the heck writes an essay in paragraphs? she also ridicules my spelling infront of the whole class. I spent an hour Thursday night trying to figure out my thesis statement for an essay. I was pretty happy with it, my mom (who is a teacher!) thought it was good. I hand it to her she says (her favorite statement) "so what?" I was about ready to cry. It is just so stressful to write and write and I just have nothing to say! I don't ever know what she wants. And now the essay is due Tuesday (we don't have school Monday) and I'm afraid to write a whole essay about the wrong thing. Whatever.
I also having a working biblography due 2/4 and I only have 1/8 sources. I don't need a thesis just the sources and three of them have to be primary with a max of 3 from the internet. I am leaning towards a paper on polio in America with a focus on FDR and the covering up of his disablity. Of course I have no way to put this in a one sentence thesis but I'm working on it. I actually like History and this is a joint project between AP English and AP US History so I'm excited. At least my US teacher doesn't hate me. He put exceptional ability on my report card. that made my like week. I just keep telling myself that in the end it will all have been worth it. Please let it be worth it.
On the college/what the f-ck am I doing after high school front, my parents know I am basically giving up on being a music teacher. Partially due to the fact that I'm not all that good at my instruments and partially to due with the income and the fact that schools will drop music/art before anything else in a bad economy. I mean I will never give up music/stop loving to play my instruments it's just that I won't make it my career. But what will I do? I have no idea. My parents can in no way support me going to college. I can't get a loan because their credit scores are in the tank. I could probably get schloarships but I don't think a free ride (meaning tuition, room and board, books, etc) is a possibility. I could go to the community college, there is a free ride schloarship to students is the top 5% of the class which in my school is like 54 people. My average is 95 (unweighted) so I think I could get it. It just depends on how senior year goes (I'm a junior). But it feels like after all my AP classes, work, good grades, clubs/bands that going to a community college is such a waste. I mean I would probably transfer after 2 years and it would give me time to have a part-time job and work. My german teacher also mentioned a scholarship to go to germany for 2 years and have an intership. If that was possible and I got it i would do that.
If I went to college (state, community) I would want to study history/global studies/international relations. Maybe. And German, Hebrew and Arabic. That would be cool. I just don't want a job that involves a suit and endless hours at a desk. I need to get cracking on this.
NCIS stuff: Stops (multi-chapter Tony/Ziva) is over at fanfiction.net. (user name: imaginer8614) It is just easier to add chapters there. I post drabbles on a semi-consistent basis on 365drabbles, so look there under user: imaginer8614. Sorry I haven't been posting stuff here. Life has just been crazy.
I need to start sleeping more. Taking AP classes plus insomnacic tendencies equals: four to five hours of sleep. Also means calculus grade goes down.
I hate English and my (insert bad word here) teacher. The ironic thing is I really loved English and my English teacher last year. I mean I really loved the class and got a one hundred on my writing portfolio. My teacher insisted I go into AP and I did. She told me I would do amazing and I was feeling pretty good about entering AP and now I feel like I should drop it. My teacher gives homework up the wazoo, which I knew was going to happen. Except now she has made little due dates everyday so like the introduction to an essay will be due, then the next day the body etc. Who the heck writes an essay in paragraphs? she also ridicules my spelling infront of the whole class. I spent an hour Thursday night trying to figure out my thesis statement for an essay. I was pretty happy with it, my mom (who is a teacher!) thought it was good. I hand it to her she says (her favorite statement) "so what?" I was about ready to cry. It is just so stressful to write and write and I just have nothing to say! I don't ever know what she wants. And now the essay is due Tuesday (we don't have school Monday) and I'm afraid to write a whole essay about the wrong thing. Whatever.
I also having a working biblography due 2/4 and I only have 1/8 sources. I don't need a thesis just the sources and three of them have to be primary with a max of 3 from the internet. I am leaning towards a paper on polio in America with a focus on FDR and the covering up of his disablity. Of course I have no way to put this in a one sentence thesis but I'm working on it. I actually like History and this is a joint project between AP English and AP US History so I'm excited. At least my US teacher doesn't hate me. He put exceptional ability on my report card. that made my like week. I just keep telling myself that in the end it will all have been worth it. Please let it be worth it.
On the college/what the f-ck am I doing after high school front, my parents know I am basically giving up on being a music teacher. Partially due to the fact that I'm not all that good at my instruments and partially to due with the income and the fact that schools will drop music/art before anything else in a bad economy. I mean I will never give up music/stop loving to play my instruments it's just that I won't make it my career. But what will I do? I have no idea. My parents can in no way support me going to college. I can't get a loan because their credit scores are in the tank. I could probably get schloarships but I don't think a free ride (meaning tuition, room and board, books, etc) is a possibility. I could go to the community college, there is a free ride schloarship to students is the top 5% of the class which in my school is like 54 people. My average is 95 (unweighted) so I think I could get it. It just depends on how senior year goes (I'm a junior). But it feels like after all my AP classes, work, good grades, clubs/bands that going to a community college is such a waste. I mean I would probably transfer after 2 years and it would give me time to have a part-time job and work. My german teacher also mentioned a scholarship to go to germany for 2 years and have an intership. If that was possible and I got it i would do that.
If I went to college (state, community) I would want to study history/global studies/international relations. Maybe. And German, Hebrew and Arabic. That would be cool. I just don't want a job that involves a suit and endless hours at a desk. I need to get cracking on this.
NCIS stuff: Stops (multi-chapter Tony/Ziva) is over at fanfiction.net. (user name: imaginer8614) It is just easier to add chapters there. I post drabbles on a semi-consistent basis on 365drabbles, so look there under user: imaginer8614. Sorry I haven't been posting stuff here. Life has just been crazy.
I need to start sleeping more. Taking AP classes plus insomnacic tendencies equals: four to five hours of sleep. Also means calculus grade goes down.