open bar confession

[imagineitintune]

so i went to a wedding today. and it was great because i knew both people who were getting married, and i fully support the marriage. and then there was this girl who i totally love.i want nothing but the best for her. i wish we could be best friends, or even just friends. that would be nice. but we can't. and it sucks, but that's just a reality of the situation. this past year completely changed me for the better. i really don't want to go back to the person i was a year ago. i agreed with everything everyone else said because i thought i was being nice. i've realized that nice doesn't mean shit if what you are doing and how you are acting and reacting is a lie. i don't want to lie anymore. i never meant to, i just didn't want to offend anyone and i didn't want to be confrontational. i think that i've been going about life all wrong. now that i know this i don't want to turn back. i can't turn back.

tonight shit went down and i wouldn't let people make assumptions about your actions or even let them ask me about YOU. i told them to mind their own business, in the same way that i would defend one of my sisters. even though we aren't speaking i hope that we will be on the same page at some point. i haven't given up on you yet, so please don't give up on me. with that being said, there are four people who i'm not related to who mean more to me than the world and i hope you know who you are. i love you and i will miss you soooo much when i move to chicago(minus bucky, ofcourse he is one of the four)!

goodnight friends and nonfriends!

/drunken post.