Head Emptying - Extremely Miscellaneous Content Warning

[imageoficculus]

I don't know where this one is going to go. I just know I have a lot of things running around in my head that I need to get down somewhere. I read a lot of things that get me thinking, and sooner or later it all runs together and pours out in one of these head emptying sessions

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[no_absolutions]

Over-analyzing, re-defining, and re-inventing. Those are also habits of mine. Mostly they creep up when I'm not being productive or feeling accomplished. When I feel like I need a change, you know. It's a defense mechanism for me-exactly! It's not like I'm running away from myself, I'm just trying to challenge myself and keep people from getting hurt

[imageoficculus]

Sometimes I wonder if I'm not running away from myself, or re-evaluating things for the wrong reasons. I rarely get down about anything, but when enough happens, I plummet deeper than people should. And sometimes when you get that unhappy about something, especially something you can't change, you want to change yourself instead to believe differently.

I recently had a discussion with a new friend about whether this is possible and if it works. He says it's not. I maintain through personal experience that it is. But it wrecks you.

I think we do have a lot in common. It's good to have you reading and commenting here. Speaking of which, I'm off to make that comment I owe you now.

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[no_absolutions]

Re-evaluation is good. Running away is bad, but so many of us are guilty of that, myself included.

Ah the story of my life. I envision going by an alternate name at times, just because things would be easier that way; but then taking the easy way out in order to change myself isn't anything admirable or truthful.

I think you can change yourself, if you wanted it that badly, but it's a process some-what similar to a stepping into a fire.

I hope you don't feel as if you need to change yourself for anyone. Self improvement/growth perhaps, is a better alternative. But sometimes people just don't realize how amazing they are. I know we don't know eachother extremely well, but I can't help feeling that you are being too hard on yourself.

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[imageoficculus]

I don't know. I didn't used to be a very nice person, and I always kind of have that in the back of my mind. Maybe I just can't help beating myself up a little.

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[no_absolutions]

No regrets, just kept promises and forgiveness. Cheer up :)