evolution.revolution...
there was that one time in that one place that we don't even remember anymore, but now i'm getting ahead of myself and you're just like all the rest
i had seriously thought about cutting you out of my life entirely at one point. in fact, i was fully prepared to do it. i knew [almost] exactly what i wanted to say. i knew exactly when i was going to do it [austin, at the last moment before leaving, so i couldn't change my mind].
but something changed, and i didn't do it. something? yeah. your random decision to come down and celebrate my birthday with the rest of us; a decision which you made a week prior to the austin trip. i resented you for about 2 minutes for having the audacity to think i even wanted to see you. especially on my birthday.
what's really stupid is, i don't even know if the thing i was pissed off about even happened.
i had seriously thought about cutting you out of my life entirely at one point. in fact, i was fully prepared to do it. i knew [almost] exactly what i wanted to say. i knew exactly when i was going to do it [austin, at the last moment before leaving, so i couldn't change my mind].
but something changed, and i didn't do it. something? yeah. your random decision to come down and celebrate my birthday with the rest of us; a decision which you made a week prior to the austin trip. i resented you for about 2 minutes for having the audacity to think i even wanted to see you. especially on my birthday.
what's really stupid is, i don't even know if the thing i was pissed off about even happened.