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so yea. i never ever ever write in this thing. but im kinda in a bad mood today. and i just feel like venting. and please understand that i know full well that im not any where near prefect in anyway. but i just feel that palm beach county. maybe florida. shit maybe all of the USA or the world has a major problem. just in my eyes. i mean i can relate to just the northern end of PBC but still. i feel that every abuses something of some sort. weather it be booze or coke or weed. i mean i dont execpt for everyone to be sober as a preacher on sunday morning. but still. i mean for girls to be doing lines of coke in 12th grade just seems a little crazy to me. maybe im just old school. but that doesnt seem right. niether does popping 8 triple c's at once. or going on break at work and coming back completely baked and then are worthless the rest of your shift. people who know me, know im not one to tell people how to think and please dont think im trying to convert anyone. but this is how i believe. i just really wanna move away even more than ever before. and i dont know where. because i get this feeling that its not much better any where else. this is a problem that cant be fixed. and i just feel as if i dont fit in. i mean again dont get me wrong. i am surrounded by people who are happy about what i do. and i love these people so much. some i consider my family. some great friends, one i have a crush on. etc.
i mean i know that some of the people who read this agree some what with me. but then also some of the people who read this are the people above who i feel are stupid. i mean honestly i agree with garret, you might as well be retarded. and yes iam aware that people have problems that i can never begin to fathom. but still i feel as if there is other ways to deal with your problems than to go snort a line or go smoke a joint or go get so fucking hammered you dont remember what happened the night before when you barfed all over the back of your rides car.
and again i know i dont understand whats going on. but to slit your wrist or to cut or what not is just straight out stupid.
i dont know. i mean honestly i dont. i dont even have the slightest clue. im so lost in this world of ours. does any one know where paradise on earth is. does any one know where prefect-ville is. if so, send me a postcard and ill meet you there.
well enough of my venting i guess.
i mean i know that some of the people who read this agree some what with me. but then also some of the people who read this are the people above who i feel are stupid. i mean honestly i agree with garret, you might as well be retarded. and yes iam aware that people have problems that i can never begin to fathom. but still i feel as if there is other ways to deal with your problems than to go snort a line or go smoke a joint or go get so fucking hammered you dont remember what happened the night before when you barfed all over the back of your rides car.
and again i know i dont understand whats going on. but to slit your wrist or to cut or what not is just straight out stupid.
i dont know. i mean honestly i dont. i dont even have the slightest clue. im so lost in this world of ours. does any one know where paradise on earth is. does any one know where prefect-ville is. if so, send me a postcard and ill meet you there.
well enough of my venting i guess.