Wow.
I just talked to Brad. Talked to him. I felt like I had to say something. Wasn't my place, probably, but I just couldn't deal with it. He was giving her too much shit, shit I felt she didn't deserve. I knew if I was standing there I wouldn't take anyone saying that to her, so I jumped in. Told her to leave her alone, back off. Figured he'd just yell at me, threaten to kill me.
I was surprised.
We talked for a couple hours, about stuff. About Natalie, about life in general. Love, hearbreak.... Even talked about why it didn't work out. I don't know. Communication breakdown, ultimately. Wasn't all his fault, no.
I know how he feels. I've been there. And I know how she can drive a guy insane. So we talked, started the "Natalie AA" meetings. Those I'll be needing, I have a feeling.
He's a good guy. I always knew he was a good guy. The couple times I met him I knew, but it was more the way Natalie talked about him, more how he made her feel. They were happy together once, and I was happy for them.
Love sucks. It does. It tells you to put everything emotional that you have out on the line, and then it just kills you if it doesn't work out. And it so seldom does. But when it does, that's when it's worth it. It's like Brad said, "When she was with me, I felt like I could do anything." I know, I know it all too well.
I envy Justin so much. Never had his heart broken. He found his perfect girl on the first try, and he didn't let her go. He did it all right, did everything right. He's lucky, but then I also know that it isn't all luck. He did what he had to do to hold onto her, did everything right, worshiped her always.... Someday I'll get my chance, with some very lucky girl, and I'll do the same. He's taught me how to do it, I've seen it work. Someday I'll get my chance, and someday, so will she.
Whoever she is.
That's all for now. It's been an interesting night, to say the least.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have a roof to jump off of.
I was surprised.
We talked for a couple hours, about stuff. About Natalie, about life in general. Love, hearbreak.... Even talked about why it didn't work out. I don't know. Communication breakdown, ultimately. Wasn't all his fault, no.
I know how he feels. I've been there. And I know how she can drive a guy insane. So we talked, started the "Natalie AA" meetings. Those I'll be needing, I have a feeling.
He's a good guy. I always knew he was a good guy. The couple times I met him I knew, but it was more the way Natalie talked about him, more how he made her feel. They were happy together once, and I was happy for them.
Love sucks. It does. It tells you to put everything emotional that you have out on the line, and then it just kills you if it doesn't work out. And it so seldom does. But when it does, that's when it's worth it. It's like Brad said, "When she was with me, I felt like I could do anything." I know, I know it all too well.
I envy Justin so much. Never had his heart broken. He found his perfect girl on the first try, and he didn't let her go. He did it all right, did everything right. He's lucky, but then I also know that it isn't all luck. He did what he had to do to hold onto her, did everything right, worshiped her always.... Someday I'll get my chance, with some very lucky girl, and I'll do the same. He's taught me how to do it, I've seen it work. Someday I'll get my chance, and someday, so will she.
Whoever she is.
That's all for now. It's been an interesting night, to say the least.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have a roof to jump off of.