I find it kind of funny,I find it kind of sad,the dreams in which im dying are the best ive ever had
So this whole "not being medicated" thing really isn't working for me. Every day i have major headaches, can't focus in school, and just don't give a shit about anything and want to go to sleep. Most nights I wake up at least 3 times. And right when it feels like it's stopped, it just comes back.
And I know that all I do is bitch and moan about how much my life sucks and I'm sorry that I do. I'll try to stop but I can't guarantee anything. It's not fair of me to make everyone listen to my bullshit.
I hate senior project. I hate applying for college. I hate that my dad is convinced I won't be able to get any scholarships. I hate that my entire chance of actually GOING to RWU is riding on the full tuition scholarship because otherwise my dad won't let me. I hate the idea of going to URI. I hate the idea of being separated from my friends. I hate change. I don't want anymore change. I hate that I cry to myself at least once a day, even if it is something that's not a big deal. I hate feeling like an attention whore because I"m upset. I hate the fact that I'm putting these burdens on other people and making them listen to it. I don't think it's right for me to do that. I just want to go to sleep and have everything end.
Screw homework.
Screw Briggs video.
Screw you (specific person not anyone on here though)
I'm going to sleep i think. Maybe for the night.
And I know that all I do is bitch and moan about how much my life sucks and I'm sorry that I do. I'll try to stop but I can't guarantee anything. It's not fair of me to make everyone listen to my bullshit.
I hate senior project. I hate applying for college. I hate that my dad is convinced I won't be able to get any scholarships. I hate that my entire chance of actually GOING to RWU is riding on the full tuition scholarship because otherwise my dad won't let me. I hate the idea of going to URI. I hate the idea of being separated from my friends. I hate change. I don't want anymore change. I hate that I cry to myself at least once a day, even if it is something that's not a big deal. I hate feeling like an attention whore because I"m upset. I hate the fact that I'm putting these burdens on other people and making them listen to it. I don't think it's right for me to do that. I just want to go to sleep and have everything end.
Screw homework.
Screw Briggs video.
Screw you (specific person not anyone on here though)
I'm going to sleep i think. Maybe for the night.