What's Happening
I need words
As wide as sky
I need language wide as
This longing inside
And I need a voice
Bigger than mine
And I need a song to sing you
That I've yet to find
I need you, oh
I need you
I need you, oh
I need you
To be here now
To be here now
To here me now
To here me now
What's happening to me??? Sitting here, home alone on a Friday. I'm getting
really bored and so I start thinking. Why am I so sad? Why aren't I so happy?
Then I think back to this summer. Yea back with camp again. I know I know. ANYway,
I realize that I haven't been as happy as I was at camp since, well camp. But somedays
I feel like I used to be so carefree and now everything matters. I feel homesick
Even though I'm home. Then I realize it: it's not necessarily camp that I miss,
even though I'm dying to go back. I miss the god high everyone's on there. It's an
indescribable feeling but I really miss it. I feel like, this year has been so crazy
that I've run out of time for God. It really makes me sad. I find myself WAITING
for wednesday nights to roll around just so I can go to praise band and at least sing
praise songs. It's only a substitute for camp, but... Ugh I don't know how to explain
It's like, you're so happy and everyone around you is and you're all in your own little world,
but then it comes crashing down after 3 weeks. It really feels like you're leaving paradise
and coming back to the real world. And each year, I promise myself I won't get wrapped up
in everything; and every year it gets worse. I miss camp, and it's 212 days away.
What am I supposed to do the next 211? I want to live life to the fullest, but how come
everytime I try to do that I feel so empty? Thank goodness for Emily Morgan.. everytime
I feel like everythings going wrong, she's either telling thomas his zippers undone for
the 50 millionth time, or emailing me bible verses...its so great. Well I'm gonna go.
Maybe I'll go in search of the whoopie cushion I acquired last year at camp
Looking in your eyes
Praising every moment because you're my only light
Reading through stares at your passion that bears me now
Shedding no little tears
The silence scares us more than leaving could
Come back
Please don't leave me now
I'll be all
that you need in life
Because I can't live without you and
I know all that
you need
I can give you everything
When you're so far you'll forget about
me
Waiting by your side
Knowing every moment is closer to your
flight
Upset with the past, but it's all that holds us now
Believing no
lies, telling each other we'll be fine forever
[Chorus]
But I'll wait
I could never leave those beautiful eyes
I know you're sorry
I know what you must be going through
And I feel sorry for you
But please don't leave me now
As the great Susan would say, don't let your fingers and toes fight
AND
Leave room for Jesus in there!