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[im_a_hp_hick]

So far this summer has half sucked and was half decent. It's not over yet, but it will be soon. I want last summer back again. I think I'm not digging this summer because I'm upnorth. I don't have any friends up here. I am not keeping touch with anyone downstate. I want to, but I just don't seem to care anymore. Maybe this is what the grownups

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[essencedespair]

Life is quite unpredictible my friend. It goes by very fast, and doesn't give you nearly enough time to plan it out. Its amazing the little things though.. that happen in life that just make you smile. I mean like god damn truely smile, nothing fake. The smile that makes you appreciate living, the smile that beams away any form of problems in your life.

Like today, i decided to stop into our local arcade this morning. Wanted to play some DDR. Go in there, and theres this adult man playing on light. It was truely impressive to see someone of his age (mid 40's id say) playing. Then we talked for about.. 20 minutes. It was just nice to talk to him. I dunno, it just made me smile. like really smile.

Or looking back on the times we played SMO. I never thought i'd just leave, or lose our group we had. (though it seems we have). But looking back, it makes me smile.

And to comment on unpredicibility... or, the thought of people coming in and out of your life.. There was a girl i met, oh back in.. 10th grade. She and i became great great friends online. Very close.. well, as close as an online relationship could get (actually, we never dated, but shared feelings for each other). We talked on the phone, and all that fun stuff. We were great great friends. Then, one day, over a year later, i get a message from her yahoo account that she sent to every friend of hers. she said "Sorry, but this online life isnt for me. I'm leaving everything, and wont be back." i seriously cried that day. Time went on, and every day since i couldnt stop thinking about her. I still do.. its that, bad? But what the worst part was... I had her phone number. it was the number to her parent's house, and i was afraid at first to call her because whenever i did, it was when she was ready to answer the phone. And i didn't know if she would be there or not, so, i just.. didnt. I regret that. Today i still keep her phone number in my wallet, and still wish to call her. Its been 2 years since i last heard from her. And i really really miss her. I never, never ever ever expected to see the message she left me. No warning, no nothing. She was just... gone.

Sucks.. but, i guess thats how life is.

Take it easy my man, i hope all is well up north. Perhaps we should plan a night to get some crazy finger action going, for old times sakes. That, and another one of those crazy circle jerks that your good at. :P