Today has been one  of those days when I  just want to curl up in a ball and die.  Life loses all meaning, and I don't ever want to get out of bed again.  And yet...I had homework.  So I pulled myself out of it, and got to work.  I put it out of my mind and didn't have a total melt-down.  I held it together because I had to.  I am proud of myself.

...is that I'm always hopeful, and they turn out awful anyway.

I hurt.  Inside and out.

My sanity is being held together by a very tiny thread.

And the worst part?  It's really not that bad.  I'm just weak.

I hate more than anything that one day I feel like I could conquer the world, and the next day I feel like it's crashing down on me.  I'm on top of everything, then Im overwhelmed beyond comprehension ( Read more... )

Hello everyone.  I know I haven't used LJ in like four years, but if I don't get this out, I think my head may explode ( Read more... )

ATTENTION EVERYONE:

I am officially applied for college.

I know my journal entries are becoming vauge and meaningless, but I really only have one thing to say.

I haven't felt this good in months.

I don't know what to do anymore. Nothing's working. Nothing's going right. I hate this.

Fuck.

Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.

RETARDED.

Today sucked. And so will the next couple weeks. Or even months.

All I want to do is hug you right now and I can't even do that.

FUCK!

Wow. You know what takes up a lot of your free time? Having a job. I was working at the Dollar Tree in Hooksett for a couple weeks, but I HATED that job, so I quit and now i'm working at Storage Direct in Bow. It's just a desk job, answering phones and stuff, but I like it. Plus we close at 2 on Saturdays and are completely closed on Sundays, ( Read more... )

We had Maggie put down. :(