Not mine anymore....

Jan 20, 2006 21:13

Well I saw my grandpa today. My parents took him to get some testing done, and after that I met up with the three of them at Long John Silvers for dinner, and then we came back here. As we were getting him into our house I told him that his dog Nikki was waiting at the door waiting for him. He said Nikki? I think kind of making sure he heard the right thing, and we said yes your dog, you remember Nikki? And my grandpa said "yes, but nikki's not my dog any more, Nikki's your dog now."

I was shocked when he said that, because to us she will always be their dog, as cookie will also be considered most of the time as their cat. It made me get a tear in my eye when I heard him say that Nikki is not his any more. It is as if he's letting go to his past so that he doesn't think of my grandma anymore. I'm sure Nikki reminds him of my grandma.

The other day I was looking through pictures and found an old Mother's Day card that my Grandpa gave to my Grandma...and it reads:

Front: To My Wife With Love On Mother's Day
Inside:
"There's no place like home,"
But, darling, you know
If you weren't there
That wouldn't be so;
It's sharing and caring
That makes it all fun,
It's being together
When the day's work is done,
And I'm more than lucky,
And I know it, too;
With a home like ours, darling,
And a Sweetheart like you.
Signed: God Richly Bless you Honey Love, Toivo 5-9-48

Ever since my Grandma died and my Grandpa has been anywhere but his home I know that he doesn't feel "at home" anymore. And I think that back in 1948 (58 years ago) my grandpa knew all along that someday he'd live with out my grandma and would have no where to call home because home is where the heart is and his heart is with my Grandma...and my Grandma is in Heaven.
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