All we are is dust in the wind.....
DAY 32
I am not minding summer so much at this point. If you would've asked me a few days ago though, that would've been a different story. Due to the fact that I am working full-time as a Supervisor, work is definitely a big portion of my summer and it's been a little consuming. It's gotten stressful quite a few times too. The little kid in me wants to groan & moan, because part of me just wants to have loads of fun and make memories. The larger portion of me is being responsible though and I know that I have to do this job for many reasons. The stress and grief is all part of it.
So badly, I want to save money. I'm a little thrown by the fact that one month of my summer has gone by already, and I don't have an amazing amount of money to show for it. I guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself though, because I just got my first full paycheck on Friday. It was beautiful too. :)
More than anything, I just want to look back on my summer and have things to show for it. A lump of money, a grand road trip with Phil, Bre, and Will, and I want to know that I did have fun. Right now, I haven't felt like I've done many side things that were that wonderful. Except for last weekend, the dinner/party with everyone. That was cool.
One of the best buds told me that because of a lot of major things going on in the recent past, I should just let go and cry my eyes out. I usually let it out every so often, but for some reason the tears just haven't come out yet. It's been a couple months. It's pretty bad when I get a massage paid for me, and it HURTS when I get it because I am that tense. The guy explained to me that it was so painful because I am that knotted up, and it wasn't because he was being rough or anything. I was actually bruised the next day. Boo. There's a reason for it all, I guess....
I am not minding summer so much at this point. If you would've asked me a few days ago though, that would've been a different story. Due to the fact that I am working full-time as a Supervisor, work is definitely a big portion of my summer and it's been a little consuming. It's gotten stressful quite a few times too. The little kid in me wants to groan & moan, because part of me just wants to have loads of fun and make memories. The larger portion of me is being responsible though and I know that I have to do this job for many reasons. The stress and grief is all part of it.
So badly, I want to save money. I'm a little thrown by the fact that one month of my summer has gone by already, and I don't have an amazing amount of money to show for it. I guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself though, because I just got my first full paycheck on Friday. It was beautiful too. :)
More than anything, I just want to look back on my summer and have things to show for it. A lump of money, a grand road trip with Phil, Bre, and Will, and I want to know that I did have fun. Right now, I haven't felt like I've done many side things that were that wonderful. Except for last weekend, the dinner/party with everyone. That was cool.
One of the best buds told me that because of a lot of major things going on in the recent past, I should just let go and cry my eyes out. I usually let it out every so often, but for some reason the tears just haven't come out yet. It's been a couple months. It's pretty bad when I get a massage paid for me, and it HURTS when I get it because I am that tense. The guy explained to me that it was so painful because I am that knotted up, and it wasn't because he was being rough or anything. I was actually bruised the next day. Boo. There's a reason for it all, I guess....