Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?
It is officially the start of DAY 21 of my summer. At this current state in time, it really sucks. Once again, I have a lot on my mind and I just feel like absolute shit. It's funny. I always mentally label my days as ones with lots of things on the mind, or a fun day with no worries, or the rare ones filled with complete happiness, etc. It seems to me that the ones with a lot on the mind with sadness mixed in are becoming more frequent as the years pass. I just want to get back to the relaxing summer with work as my only worry. I hope I can get back to that soon.
I think the past weekend really did it for me. I lost someone special to me. Not in the physical sense. Just in the relationship sense. It's just always sad when something that is a large part of your life has to end, and this is no exception. I felt like the world was against us in a lot of ways. On top of it, I have come to the realization that my friends from home will always be dramatic. In a naive way, I would go home all the time and hope that it would just be loads of fun, but lately, I've been getting disappointed over and over. I'm sick of it. It's not to say that I haven't had fun, but the bottom line is that I definitely feel frustrated more times than I have a good time. I think it will be a good idea to stay at school for awhile now. The people that really matter will come see me if they want to. I've spent enough times making the trip home. Now it's everyone else's turn to come to me.
I think the past weekend really did it for me. I lost someone special to me. Not in the physical sense. Just in the relationship sense. It's just always sad when something that is a large part of your life has to end, and this is no exception. I felt like the world was against us in a lot of ways. On top of it, I have come to the realization that my friends from home will always be dramatic. In a naive way, I would go home all the time and hope that it would just be loads of fun, but lately, I've been getting disappointed over and over. I'm sick of it. It's not to say that I haven't had fun, but the bottom line is that I definitely feel frustrated more times than I have a good time. I think it will be a good idea to stay at school for awhile now. The people that really matter will come see me if they want to. I've spent enough times making the trip home. Now it's everyone else's turn to come to me.