for the last night i lie...could i lie next to you
today was probably one of the worst days ever...actually the past week has been basically miserable.
i got a text message 2 weeks ago saying my grandfather was very sick and in the hospital so obviously i was upset. But then i found out everything was fine. Well then i get another phone call last week saying that he was sick and in the hospital again and the doctors were only giving him a few days to live. I felt like this was something straight out of a movie and its not real. i mean, he got better last time so it was just a matter of time before he got better again. this time it was serious though. They gave him until this past saturday to live, he went strong though...until today
ive been waiting for that one phone call that would turn everything around. I havent slept in over a week, i havent been going to class because i get so tired, and i havent been eating. imagine what its like to be waiting for that phone call. well i finally got it today. My mom called around 7 and i knew...i just knew that when i answered the phone it would be that call. she told me my grandpa had passed away about an hr before and she was flying out tomorrow. none of my cousins are coming and my sister isnt coming with my mom either. I havent seen my mom in almost a month which really didnt bother me before, when she lived 45 min away, but now that shes living cross country im excited to see her...not necessarily under these terms though. I was also hoping to see my sister but i cant. if she misses anymore school she'll fail the semester cuz she missed over 2 weeks from the move. ive been stressing out about everything the past couple of weeks, school, my family, my grandpa. Im really upset, but not as upset as i thought i was going to be. I guess its because everyone saw it coming.i always told myself i ddont even know what i would do with myself when my grandfather died. he was everything in the world to me and we were really close. i really dont feel like doing anything, sleeping, eating, homework...living
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i got a text message 2 weeks ago saying my grandfather was very sick and in the hospital so obviously i was upset. But then i found out everything was fine. Well then i get another phone call last week saying that he was sick and in the hospital again and the doctors were only giving him a few days to live. I felt like this was something straight out of a movie and its not real. i mean, he got better last time so it was just a matter of time before he got better again. this time it was serious though. They gave him until this past saturday to live, he went strong though...until today
ive been waiting for that one phone call that would turn everything around. I havent slept in over a week, i havent been going to class because i get so tired, and i havent been eating. imagine what its like to be waiting for that phone call. well i finally got it today. My mom called around 7 and i knew...i just knew that when i answered the phone it would be that call. she told me my grandpa had passed away about an hr before and she was flying out tomorrow. none of my cousins are coming and my sister isnt coming with my mom either. I havent seen my mom in almost a month which really didnt bother me before, when she lived 45 min away, but now that shes living cross country im excited to see her...not necessarily under these terms though. I was also hoping to see my sister but i cant. if she misses anymore school she'll fail the semester cuz she missed over 2 weeks from the move. ive been stressing out about everything the past couple of weeks, school, my family, my grandpa. Im really upset, but not as upset as i thought i was going to be. I guess its because everyone saw it coming.i always told myself i ddont even know what i would do with myself when my grandfather died. he was everything in the world to me and we were really close. i really dont feel like doing anything, sleeping, eating, homework...living
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