keep your hands up
Wow. Rollercoaster. Not the good kind. How can everything go so crappy all of a sudden when they were going so good?? I am really okay. I will get through this. I am leaving for Texas early... like 3 weeks early. I talked to my boss today. The restaurant is so slow in May anyway, so he was okay with me being gone the entire month. There are multiple reasons why I need to get home ASAP.
1) One of my best friend's husbands died... out of the blue
2) two of my sisters are going through some hard times
3) I want/need to be around my family
4) I have nothing holding me here until June... then all the fun starts
5) Mom has some business set up for me doing photography stuff for friends and family
Katy and I are going to the beach. Not sure when, sometime in May. Not sure how (by cruise or plane), but we are going. I have been looking up cruises and cheap airfare to Cancun or Cozumel. I just want to go to the beach! I want to lay in the sun in the sand... I am getting excited thinking about it. See what I mean? Whirlwind rollercoaster effect over here.
My heart has been doing some very strange irregular palputations(sp?) today. It is kind of annoying.
I went to church this morning and that was nice... much needed.
In order to get my thoughts somewhat straight, I am going to list off all my current emotions:
- anxious, hurt and disappointed, misunderstood, thankful, but curious and somewhat sad, betrayed and very very disrespected, belittled, but strong and secure, yet confused......
I just don't get it... and that's it. I was disrespected and it hurt my feelings.
1) One of my best friend's husbands died... out of the blue
2) two of my sisters are going through some hard times
3) I want/need to be around my family
4) I have nothing holding me here until June... then all the fun starts
5) Mom has some business set up for me doing photography stuff for friends and family
Katy and I are going to the beach. Not sure when, sometime in May. Not sure how (by cruise or plane), but we are going. I have been looking up cruises and cheap airfare to Cancun or Cozumel. I just want to go to the beach! I want to lay in the sun in the sand... I am getting excited thinking about it. See what I mean? Whirlwind rollercoaster effect over here.
My heart has been doing some very strange irregular palputations(sp?) today. It is kind of annoying.
I went to church this morning and that was nice... much needed.
In order to get my thoughts somewhat straight, I am going to list off all my current emotions:
- anxious, hurt and disappointed, misunderstood, thankful, but curious and somewhat sad, betrayed and very very disrespected, belittled, but strong and secure, yet confused......
I just don't get it... and that's it. I was disrespected and it hurt my feelings.