disappointments
Hmm...seems that every time i have something to complain, I will post inside here, huh? Well, coz I can't post in the other blog...and this live journal is for me to think thru things.
Just now my bf flared up over the phone again. Sigh...sometimes he does that, sometimes he doesn't. And when he does that, I really really hate it. Coz in the first place it has nothing to do with me! Jeez. As if by flaring up at me there will be use?! Damn irritated.
I was angry to the point that I wanted to just delete all his messages away. All that thing about loving me and such. Just paying lip service only. Like I thought before. Can jolly well tell me that he loves me today, and the very next day he just flares up at me. Damn. As if I have no feelings?! It's like it almost erases everything he had been trying to accumulate earlier on. Darnz! I hate hate hate lip service.
Forget it man...I keep thinking we are going to break up soon. Maybe I think too much. Maybe I worry too much. But i am certainly not going to give my all with a guy who cannot even be sure himself whether we will be together 3 mths down the road. I don't even want gifts from him. Can you believe it? Every time he wants to buy something for me I would reject and tell him flat that I don't want it. It's like if on the occassion we break up at least there will be lesser things to remind me of him abt...all for the betta i guess. So funny, now I don't even want to take photos with him together. Apart from the 3 we took using that camera phone, we never took any more pics. It's as if it's not important. And it's for the best I think, coz in this sense if we do break off I don't have to spend time disposing everything to do with him.
See?! I am already thinking of breaking up with him liao. Darnz. I think this comes in a while everytime i am pissed with him. which i am RIGHT NOW!
I guess I am not suitable to be anyone's gf since i can't stand any nonsense frm my bf.
ilusion and her disillusions as usual
Just now my bf flared up over the phone again. Sigh...sometimes he does that, sometimes he doesn't. And when he does that, I really really hate it. Coz in the first place it has nothing to do with me! Jeez. As if by flaring up at me there will be use?! Damn irritated.
I was angry to the point that I wanted to just delete all his messages away. All that thing about loving me and such. Just paying lip service only. Like I thought before. Can jolly well tell me that he loves me today, and the very next day he just flares up at me. Damn. As if I have no feelings?! It's like it almost erases everything he had been trying to accumulate earlier on. Darnz! I hate hate hate lip service.
Forget it man...I keep thinking we are going to break up soon. Maybe I think too much. Maybe I worry too much. But i am certainly not going to give my all with a guy who cannot even be sure himself whether we will be together 3 mths down the road. I don't even want gifts from him. Can you believe it? Every time he wants to buy something for me I would reject and tell him flat that I don't want it. It's like if on the occassion we break up at least there will be lesser things to remind me of him abt...all for the betta i guess. So funny, now I don't even want to take photos with him together. Apart from the 3 we took using that camera phone, we never took any more pics. It's as if it's not important. And it's for the best I think, coz in this sense if we do break off I don't have to spend time disposing everything to do with him.
See?! I am already thinking of breaking up with him liao. Darnz. I think this comes in a while everytime i am pissed with him. which i am RIGHT NOW!
I guess I am not suitable to be anyone's gf since i can't stand any nonsense frm my bf.
ilusion and her disillusions as usual