another entry
its time to update...considering my last entry is forever old....lol
eep. im talking to my friend sam right now!! thats exciting...considering the last talk we had was sort of a fight...=/ which kind of sucked...a lot. but we're cool now...=( shes super sick. i feel bad for her...=( i miss her oodles. lol
hmm....sooo a lot has happened...to much to possibly type...but ill sum it up the best i can...
vincent and i=completely over....he still loves me, but isnt stupid. which makes sence...=/ i got depressed about that for a while...because i did truly love him w/everything i had. but i think its deffinetly better this way...i dont want to love him anymore.
im dating chad now...yes. chad fischlein. lol its german. hehe. i like him lots. =)
and i really hope/think we're going to last a long time. =) buttt...on the other hand...the last time i thought that...things didnt end well...=/
but it will. because im not stupid anymore. ive learned. i wont do what i did to vincent EVER again, to ANYONE, because i refuse to put someone else, and myself through that again. end of story. so yeah...im happy yet again. =)
ha. me and my bi-polarness! ugh. whatev. lol
this time though...i think i acually WILL stay happy...for the most part...i mean, ill have little sperts of depression...but who doesnt? so i think i might be normal! hah.
except im mildly crazy...yupp. lol
i love everyone in my life right now. they are simply amazing and mean everything in the world to me.
Micah
Serah
Leigh Ann
Jessica
Ashley
Chad<3
they're what gets me through the day. and it feels terrific to be this happy again...and not just cuz of the boy im with....but because im FINALLY seeing this place as a possible second home...because the friends ive made here....are irreplacable. =) and they make me feel at home. =)
i finally got ungrounded for smoking...but...i still smoke. lol =/ and right now, i smell horribly of it! =/ eep.
uhm...hmm. what else?
its nearly christmas...thats pretty exciting. =) im getting a lot of new amazing stuff that im uber excited about! =)
and on christmas day, im going to wear this pirate hoodie im getting, and sit down on the couch and watch pirates of the caribbean!!! its going to be amazing! simply amazing! hehe
uhmmm....my older brother kevin comes in tomorrow night! yay! =) thats pretty exciting too. i miss him! and hopefully i can burn some pretty sweet CDs from him! since he has such a great taste in music and all. =)
speaking of great music, the scene aesthetic is simply amazing. =) ahh. sex up. forsure. haha
the only thing bad...is that i miss picking flowers, and having them put in my hair...=/ i want so badly to take a walk in the park/raveen(sp) and just pick every pretty flower i see.
it really is so tempting w/every flower i see, to just bend over and pick it and place it so gently in my hair....just like i use to...=( i sometimes miss those days...but i shouldnt. i cant. because i wont. but i do...fuck.
hmm. yeah. thats about i think...
so have fun reading my whole life haha. sort of. lol
with love,
Julie<3
eep. im talking to my friend sam right now!! thats exciting...considering the last talk we had was sort of a fight...=/ which kind of sucked...a lot. but we're cool now...=( shes super sick. i feel bad for her...=( i miss her oodles. lol
hmm....sooo a lot has happened...to much to possibly type...but ill sum it up the best i can...
vincent and i=completely over....he still loves me, but isnt stupid. which makes sence...=/ i got depressed about that for a while...because i did truly love him w/everything i had. but i think its deffinetly better this way...i dont want to love him anymore.
im dating chad now...yes. chad fischlein. lol its german. hehe. i like him lots. =)
and i really hope/think we're going to last a long time. =) buttt...on the other hand...the last time i thought that...things didnt end well...=/
but it will. because im not stupid anymore. ive learned. i wont do what i did to vincent EVER again, to ANYONE, because i refuse to put someone else, and myself through that again. end of story. so yeah...im happy yet again. =)
ha. me and my bi-polarness! ugh. whatev. lol
this time though...i think i acually WILL stay happy...for the most part...i mean, ill have little sperts of depression...but who doesnt? so i think i might be normal! hah.
except im mildly crazy...yupp. lol
i love everyone in my life right now. they are simply amazing and mean everything in the world to me.
Micah
Serah
Leigh Ann
Jessica
Ashley
Chad<3
they're what gets me through the day. and it feels terrific to be this happy again...and not just cuz of the boy im with....but because im FINALLY seeing this place as a possible second home...because the friends ive made here....are irreplacable. =) and they make me feel at home. =)
i finally got ungrounded for smoking...but...i still smoke. lol =/ and right now, i smell horribly of it! =/ eep.
uhm...hmm. what else?
its nearly christmas...thats pretty exciting. =) im getting a lot of new amazing stuff that im uber excited about! =)
and on christmas day, im going to wear this pirate hoodie im getting, and sit down on the couch and watch pirates of the caribbean!!! its going to be amazing! simply amazing! hehe
uhmmm....my older brother kevin comes in tomorrow night! yay! =) thats pretty exciting too. i miss him! and hopefully i can burn some pretty sweet CDs from him! since he has such a great taste in music and all. =)
speaking of great music, the scene aesthetic is simply amazing. =) ahh. sex up. forsure. haha
the only thing bad...is that i miss picking flowers, and having them put in my hair...=/ i want so badly to take a walk in the park/raveen(sp) and just pick every pretty flower i see.
it really is so tempting w/every flower i see, to just bend over and pick it and place it so gently in my hair....just like i use to...=( i sometimes miss those days...but i shouldnt. i cant. because i wont. but i do...fuck.
hmm. yeah. thats about i think...
so have fun reading my whole life haha. sort of. lol
with love,
Julie<3