DESPERATELY WAITING
GIZMo is never comming home, i dont want to cry but it does hurt. im waiting on someone from justins house to come pick me up, were going out to eat somewhere and then i have to sit through another exciting band practice. i had something really weird happen to me last night, i had a sex dream about my friend craig, and it makes me feel bad because he's the guitar player for justins band, but i've always had a crush on craig, i just never thought i'd have such an explicit sex dream about him. i'm pretty sure it was a wet dream, because i was really turned on in my dream, it was crazy. but its not the first sex dream ive had, i had one a few months ago about that guy brandon who used to work at the food court, that one was a lot more hard core than the one with craig, but they were both good! its weird because everytime i dream about justin its never sexual, its always really stupid, or sad. i wish i could talk to munda, but munda really weirded me out the other night at toms. he was really drunk and he wanted me to get megan to come in the bathroom and get naked and do shit, i think he would have fucked her that night. and she was so drunk she probably would have done it if robbie wasnt there. he just weirded me out, i almost wanted to cry because i didnt know what to do or say. sometimes its hard to find out that people arent who you think they are. maybe he was just drunk and i should cut him a break, i dont know, he just scared me. megan and i arent friends anymore, and it makes me feel kind of bad, because its my fault, i was always mean to her, i never cut her a break. i always new i was a bad friend, i just hate it when i have to deal with it over and over again. i miss allin.